was in hospital with bad pain transfered to psyc now at my mom's I think mike you had a great idea lets see what we can do with thaqt song in entirity yes austin mis=xed harmony as well but I too can sing either melody Raman mike get to it love ya guys
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
as i read thru todays psots, i see that going to er or hospital is another way to go. something i never knew.
i read in another post, whee others offered advice that hopitals will keep u durin a detox. where are these hospitals at??? i nevr heard of this!
i woud give anything to go to a rehab place, the kind only wealthy people can afford. i am jealous of the rich and famous that they can afford to go to these!! i wouldlove to trade one rich/famous person for their slot.
i would benefit from it. the linsey lohands cant showup, i sure as chit would!. not to cut her/them down; its jsut im ready, so so ready, and shes not. thats all. we are in different places. i want one of those kind of rehabs, not the crap 0 la they give to those of us who are not rollin in dough.
i have seen what those offer. yikes!
i find i get better when i am around others. not when im alone. very important discovery for me, since i just got outta county jail, 5 months of sheer hell. and 5 months of being reminded 'that i have a higher power, and a will to live. the love-hate relationship i have with myself, my addiction'
i came out clean. first time in 20 yrs.. i was clean! i loved the feeling. but the traumatic events have done damage. i am fallin again.
so, i am reachin out . i was doing good when i got out. or i was in some sort of euphoria for bein able to finally get out of jail, the 4 walls, and walj home inmy robe!
my apt was still here! that was Gods will. I had no one to lean on, but me, and i learned to lean on others while in there. first time as well to learn that.
i am alone again, and i fall down. thats my plight. being alone. thats what makes me fall apart.
i isolate, and down down down she goes..... i am falling. i dont want to fall
Detoxes are not just for rich people. I got clean in a state detox with a free bed. There is hope my friend! Call your your local hot line and they can point you in the right direction. You can also call a hospital and they can give you numbers. Hang in and know this works! Keep posting so we know you are ok.
If I understand correctly you have already de toxed. A rehab sounds like it would do you a lot of good. I agree that calling your local NA helpline would be a good idea. Tell the person your story and ask if they know about rehabs. In my area there are many who work in rehabs and a few who help arrange funding. It's worth looking into. In the mean time keep posting here and go to meetings. peace. P.S. I understand completely about being "terrified to live, and terrified to die" your in the right place.
