I have been on oxycontin and Norco for just over 2 years (due to a bad accident). As the doctor has lowered my dosage the past 3 months, my need has increased. I have obviously built up tolerance plus, in honesty, I have not been taking them the way they are prescribed (won't go into detail so as not to trigger anyone else's addiction). I really wasn't ready to go into "recovery" but I am forced to as it is 8 days until my next appointment. I can barely write this. I have ALL the classic signs of withdrawal to the extreme! Can someone tell me if I should go to the ER? Or is this something I can safely get through on my own? If I can do this using 12 steps, I am ready to get off this nightmare merry-go round! Must leave, can only write when no one else is in the room! Please, I can use any encouragement you can give me!
Suggest you might seek medical help you dont want to end up having a seizure seek help ASAP. and on the next hand this is a good time to get involved in seeking some help glad your asking but you also need help right there at home, NA people will help you with this get to a meeting and share whats going on hopefully there are some people who can support you and walk with you.
Hello Hanalei. Yes I agree ,I know you can go to the ER and medically get at least a 3 day detox under care.Good opportunity from that point trying to contact NA group(usually ER will have numbers or there are helplines)Your meds should probably be dispensed by someone other than you or the abuse is much more bound to occur.(someone in support,not using)This is a really prime opportunity for you to start a new way to live....hope to here back from you.......
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saw this. going thru same thing. more or less. i went to jail, first time in my life, 52 yr old woman. SFPD dragged me outa house in my robe, chains, cuffs, etc. no explanation. when i get to jail, i was treated like animal who breathed too hard on finger printing guy!! told me to stop breathin on him. i was just trying to hang on!!
then i was thrown into a basket case room, where so many ladies were, had been there for weeks! omg! this was jail i kept saying! why is it so cold in here? why are we screamed at every 2 mins to shut the f up!?? and sit on our metal bunks. i was thee for 4 weks before anyone came tosee me.
i siezed so many times i lost countl they ripped me off my presctiptions of 15 yrs. and wouldnt call to verify!!!!!!!!!!??? i was moved to a glass cage, for another few weeks. where u loose all audio/visual perceptions. the overhead lite is on 12 hrs a day! the speaker is nevr on. the buzzer to wake u up or bug u is so loud.
it was a 2 person tank. they kept throwin loonies in with me. ea one was insane street people!!! with lice and all other stuff.
watchin the nurse roll out the meds cart 6 to 8 times a day was shere toture. these girls who had the 'system down'... were not in pain. they had been in and out of there for years, as was there mothers, fathers, aunts, etc.
bottom line: i feel ur pain my friend. i really do. now is the time to hold on, and surrender. thats all i could do. surrender all that was happenedin to me to my HP/higher power.
i was kept for 9 months!! let go at 5 months. for a crime i didnt commit. but thats another sotry. i jsut got home, and i am taking my prescripted meds. and have such a fear of going outside. the trauma that happened in there has recked me.
i was eventually moved to another section. we had NA come 2x a week, we could walk! actually walk, instead of sitting/laying on metal 21 hrs a day. we resembled zombies, caged animals.
the look in the eyes of woman that are stuck behind bars/walls.. is an outrage. i went into a dream state at one point, had no idea i yelled out for my daughter. i was thrown to ground by over zealous feamle officer, and her comrades, picked me up off floor,put my arm so far up my back it shoulda snapped, shoved me into a cage.
all this while coming off meds. and.. there is so much more to tell. what goes on.
i didnt mean to hi jack. i only meant to answer you. forgivbe me, but im cryin so hard, ic an hardly see, or write this
Thank you sooo much for each of you who took the time to answer my post. I have had one hell of a day (excuse the language but no other word fits). As for getting medical help detoxing, I would do it in a heart beat. But the state I live in strictly regulates pain meds, the ONLY doctors who can prescribe them for more than a few days are pain specialists and you have to sign these long agreements which can be legally held against you if you violate them. So, I can ONLY go to my assigned pain doc and I know for an absolute fact that his belief is that if you misuse your meds, for whatever reason, you weren't being responsible and he refuses to see you or help in any way until your next appointment (one week from tomorrow for me and this is just my first day of no meds).
To be honest, I am seriously considering dropping something heavy on my foot so I can go to the emergency room, as in that situation they wouldn't tell me I have to work it out with my pain dr. and would give me something on a one-time basis for the pain.I know it sounds crazy but I am absolutely DESPERATE!!! I actually tried an hour ago but couldn't force myself to do it right.
All I want is to taper off, I would be elated to have someone else dispense the meds to me (I actually asked my son if he would do that after my last appointment but he wasn't comfortable with it). I have to add that I am on disability for anxiety disorders so I don't have a support system here to help me (and the idea of going to a meeting sends my anxiety through the roof, that's why I am going online for this). I will check back again tomorrow morning when my son is at college. Thanks to each of you so much!
go check into a rehab i to have fought this thing called addiction it aint pretty and i think pain meds are the worst i am on a drug called suboxone it is great for pain and also helps with cravings and can act like anabuse if you try to use talk to your doc about it but go get help we will be here to help
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go check into a rehab i to have fought this thing called addiction it aint pretty and i think pain meds are the worst i am on a drug called suboxone it is great for pain and also helps with cravings and can act like anabuse if you try to use talk to your doc about it but go get help we will be here to help
i keep hearing how there is more and more doctors opening up their hearts and helping people like us.
my younger brother found one in hollywood, a clinic .. that kept him 2 months. hes on that suboxone and something else now.
he says he finally knows what its like to feel 'normal'. he was an addict 25 or so years. like me. :(
its in our brain chemicals or something. me and my brother that is.. they are mixed up. our chemicals. we never would of went the way of pain meds, cocaine, heroin, if doctors woulda helped us 20 some odd years ago.
oh. my brother has been clean over 3 years . hes a counslor in a rehap as well. he helps ex-cons as they get released from prison
he has a withdrawal video of himself on u-tube... awful.
