never been here before,but i gotta start somewhere....tomorrow is my birthday,having said that,I've been thinking what a disaster my life has been,but I seem to have it on track now.I can't believe i'm not in prison or dead,I think my real punishment is laying down at night and having all those memories in my head of things I'd like to forget.They said over time i'd forget...or maybe remember less,but that just hasn't happened yet.So,one more year clean,I've come along way !! I guess I'm patting myself on the back cause it's all I've ever acheived in my life.
Welcome Elisa! Happy Birthday.........Are you working a program? Congrats on a year clean....I found for myself working my 4th and 5th step with my sponsor freed me from 25 years of torment and guilt from the horrors of addiction and things I did in my life I was having a hard time living with.Even though I asked the God of my understanding for forgiveness,I needed more . I also know that remaining abstinent from drugs and actually working a program,with a sponsor were light years apart.Narcotics Anonymous may or may not be for you but our program offers a spiritual solution in the steps,traditions and concepts that can change your life.it is very difficult to self sponsor as we know our best thinking got us where it did.I am glad you found our forum,we are people with varying degrees of recovery and addiction sharing the message of hope and the promise of freedom from active addiction.This disease is physical,mental and spiritual in nature..Stick around let us know how its going okay.you can find a new way to live, an even better life than the one before your first picked up!!..peace.
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I think my real punishment is laying down at night and having all those memories in my head of things I'd like to forget.
Oooooooh yeah, I know that real well. I used to wake up every morning with this huge knot in my stomach. Couldn't bear another day being me. Then I found the 12 steps of narcotics anonymous. I work them to the best of my ability and you know what? That self hate is gone. I wake up now and it's another day, no more no less.
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never been here before,but i gotta start somewhere....tomorrow is my birthday,having said that,I've been thinking what a disaster my life has been,but I seem to have it on track now.I can't believe i'm not in prison or dead,I think my real punishment is laying down at night and having all those memories in my head of things I'd like to forget.They said over time i'd forget...or maybe remember less,but that just hasn't happened yet.So,one more year clean,I've come along way !! I guess I'm patting myself on the back cause it's all I've ever acheived in my life.
