the new doc gave me an assigniment to try to findout jus how many personalities we are messing with he wants me to journal and as I do have the alter sign after thier entry I am scared to know Ithink last count 15 so Idon't know half the time who the hell Iam I end up with bruises and burns that Idon't remember doing by writing tin the style he is wanting me to journal I scared Idunno if Iwanna or can handle the truth he sees the switches as well as the nurse that comes in once a week I can't help but wonder what it looks like from some one eles point of veiw when I ask I don't really get a clear answer that bothers me but I am avoiding as much reality as possible... life has been rough for some time now Ijust wish the rest would follow suite so now I am working with a D.O. and a phd so I have docs out the wasu now they will be doin double duty on me surgeries start after fall 3 that are needed so far but won't let them operate till I can't handle the cold lol I hybernate they ar doin a epideral in my spine tues for pain control I am scared not sure what to think my ex fiance is taking me and my new well 10 years off and on together I have managed to scare no matter how real all this is to him he just does'nt want it bad enough and after 10 years I would say he had plenty of chances my ego is bruised but this too shall pass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanx for listening
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Hey Manon! thanks for the update.Hopefully the med people you are working with now are helping you move along in a positive and productive manner..You definitely got some things going ,but stay strong ,you are a fighter.We are here for you(all of you:) and I know that its hard at times to wonder what the ..... but Your HP is aware and though you will face things harder than you can bear,it is His reason to have you put your trust and faith in that power whatever it may be for you.Let us know how its going,.My daughter is minoring in Spanish ,she is 22 in her last year of school for her masters degree in teaching.It is almost a must in my area to know Spanish as a teacher.Good luck with that. my spanish is limited to 'WAT UP ESSE! and my daughter says that really don't mean much but I like it:) peace and blessings my friend.Thanks for being here for us!
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Hi Manon, You seem to have a good team of professionals working with you as well as some personal support. That's a pretty good foundation for you to build on. I hear the fear....and fear is something I know very well, having been driven by it my whole life. I feel courage behind your fear though. You are brave in facing your demons. Keep on going forward and remember us here @ MIP.
hi, I know you do not know me, but from your post about personalities, I am assuming you may have multiples, My mom does and is currently in therapy. I know from talking to her that it can be very scary. If you ever need to talk, please let me know. I wish you the best with everything in your life!
Hey Catherine! thanks for jumping in and offering your experience,strength and hope to help us each day in our daily woork of recovery.Cant wait to hear how your first meeting went!!!
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