Hi, I am new here. I have been clean since June 25 this year. 5 days so far and it has been really hard, and yes I am counting today. (I had been clean since the 13th, but slipped up again on the 24th and feel so terrible about it.) I am 23 and really want to get my life together. Most of my former friends still use and I have stopped hanging out with them and speaking to them because they do not understand why I want to stop. I am going to start going to meetings, but was having kind of a rough day today, so I thought this would be a good place to go. I am just trying to think positive thoughts, but am having a hard time doing so.
Catherine1, WELCOME IT IS SO GOOD TO SEE YOU..it is also a blessing to see someone as young as you are aware enough to know that you want a "new life" and not one of addiction.You can come in from the storm before spending many years out on the tiles.That is exciting..Congratulations on 5 days,a miracle for anyone who uses..I would definitely finding a meeting place,commit yourself to the suggestions needed to reenforce your ability to stay clean"one day at a time".I know that is a very difficult thing because we project "how can I never drink/drug etc again.Stay in the day .You only have to do this one day at a time.Find a support group and you will find out there are "better' ways to live without using and a world full of people who are in that world.We have all been where you are and it does take honest admission,willingness and a commitment but 'you never have to use again. Narcotics Anonymous shares a message of hope and the promise of freedom from active addiction. Come and join us and begin your new way to live.. Stay close to people in recovery right now(meetings,sponsorship,helplines,NA.ORG TO READ LITERATURE ETC..,and keep coming back here.We are here for each other,just one addict helping another and sharing our pain,joy ,and life experiences with each other and things that have and havent helped us move forward one day at a time.. OTHERS will be on to share with you,I am sure of that....peace.......
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Welcome Catherine, Yes indeed this is a good place to come. You will find alot of support and good suggestions here. By all means get to face 2 face meetings. There simply is not substitute for that. Listen to the women with good clean time. Introduce yourself to them and let them guide you through these critical early days. It was wise of you to distance yourself from your using friends. So many young addicts seeking recovery think they can keep clean keep and still hang out with using friends.....The track record for doing that successfully is poor. I so glad you found us. We need you as much as you need us. Keep coming back and don't pick up no matter what!
Hello everyone... jus signed in... i ve jus been clean for a few dayz... and going through a really really hard time... i just cant stop this disease ... this cravings and this obsessions... i've jus been through my sick period... its over... but stilll... just called my dealer... and thank god or wht to say... i m confused... he didnt pick up the ph... for fuck sake i want to stay clean ... but just cant stop myself... i m really really scared about the future... cauz i dont want to end up being a pathetic junky... and here i m one... HELP PLEASE!!!
Welcome! This whole thing starts for you by serious admission that you are powerless and unmanageable.There are suggestions we can offer that can bring you to arrest this disease and then begin work on your recovery.Have you tried a meeting yet?Keep coming back here and our group can offer some suggestions that have helped us move forward one day at a time.........
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Thank you all for all the support. I appreciate it so much! My first AA meeting is tonight and I am going to try and go to a NA meeting on Thursday. I can't seem to sleep but as long as I am not using I am happy. I am kind of scared but know that (especially after the forums here) that people are not going to judge me. Thank you so much for your support. I will let you know how everything worked out and will definitely keep coming back here and go to meetings. Thank u!!!!!!!!
Catherine...you sound great!. Yep, a little nervousness is natural. I had to think a minute before writing this next thought, but here it goes. If your addiction was to drugs rather than alcohol you may not get the warm welcome at an AA meeting that you would at a NA meeting. If that is the situation, don't be put off. AA is for alcoholics and some, not all but some AA groups don't want to hear about drugs. Please go to the meeting and give us some feedback as to how it went for you.
Smoking gunz, Sounds like you may be ready to surrender. That means that you admit to yourself that your addiction is a power greater than you and that you can't control your using by yourself. You need help. Posting here is a good start, but I urge you to go to NA.org and find some meetings in your area. You will also find links to area helplines. You enter your area code and a number will come up. Call it. Tell them exactly what you told us....listen to thier suggestions. Right now you need to remember that you are not alone. Thousands of people just like you found Narcotics Anonymous and are living proof that the NA promise is real... "An addict, any addict can lose the desire to use drugs and find a new way to live" It won't be easy my friend but if you are sick and tired of being sick and tired there is hope. Keep coming back!
Welcome Catherine1 ,keep Coming Back,It Works If You Want It To. Go to some meeting ,get phone numbers,call a few of them when your hurting.The fellowship is based on the theraputic value of one addict helping another.Try 90 meetings in 90 days.Find a sponsor when you are ready.
