"We didn't stumble into this fellowship brimming with love, honesty, open-mindedness, or willingness...When we were beaten, we became willing."
Basic Text, p.20
Surrender may be the necessary foundation for recovery, but sometimes we fight it. Most of us look back after some clean time and wonder why on earth we fought so hard to deny our powerlessness when surrender is what finally saved our lives.
As we recovery, new opportunities to surrender present themselves. We can either struggle with everyone and everything we encounter or we can recall the benefits of our first surrender and stop fighting.
Most of the pain we experience comes from fighting, not surrendering. In fact, when we surrender, the pain ends and hope takes its place. We begin to believe that all will be well and, after some time, realize that our lives are much better as a result. We feel the same way we did when we gave up the illusion that we could control our using - relieved, free, and filled with fresh hope.
Just for Today: Is there a surrender I need to make today? I will remember my first surrender and remind myself that I don't need to fight anymore.
Morning Don! yes I am already surrendering to the powers that be in my working environment.Just when I want to scream,I will graciously bow out..Today im going to "recite even more continuously,'TAKE MY WILL AND MY LIFE,GUIDE ME IN MY RECOVERY,SHOW ME HOW TO LIVE" that always gets me out of my socks!!!It is seeming that my meditations(3rd/11th)from the bed to the floor will take even more perserverance during this already "adventurous day!But,any day clean through the Grace of God and the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous is better than any day 'in the grip"Have a blessed and productive day
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
