My God,, you folks can work miracles on a shy addict like me. Your sharings have given me confidence.. That's why I keep coming back !!!
There I was,, playing at this paty of page 3 folks and in walks our movie hero. Now Im shy,, self concious and all.
Then this guy wishes the host, hostess and few other and then looks at me.
" Oh wow,,, how are you Raman ?"......
I love that guy for his generosity... Mind yu, this guy is real big in local cinema. He's got a fan following of millions......
And chose to say Hi,,,,,, to a humble sax man like me.
I gave him a card and asked for some recordings,,,maybe he will call... Anyways he made my evening and I felt like form then on, each number I was playing was for him.......
NA has given me coping mechanisms,,,even if shy, angry, etc. God's Grace is nuff to reverse it,,,,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
So now that's two movie stars you have met. Man, that sax of your is taking you to some very cool places. And it's all happening because your clean. Blow daddy!!!
Thanks for sharing that, and thanks for the blessings
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
needless to say, drinks were served, needless to say I was asked needless to say I said NO without even batting an eye-lid. needless to say, I wasnt bothered anymore, just played my music and got appreciated..........
And I believe I caught myself feeling very good about all that !
-- Edited by Raman on Sunday 20th of June 2010 01:19:13 PM
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Ugh,,, Yesterday, as I was avouring a great occasion I was lucky to be in, I get a call saying Wednesdays show stands cancelled.
Im flaming and furious, but later realize it is better to let it be; the circumstances werent under the control of the manager.
I also reflected hwo Id passed up a wedding show for this corporate show, simply cause the wedding did not apy as much as the corporate. Sheer greed.
The guy from the wedding was willing to pay upfront,, I should have taken it as that was the first offer for the date. Greed makes me think I deserve better. So I took an unnecssary risk and opted for the unsecured corporate show. And in fact, a Small Silent Voice did say to opt for the wedding, I chose not to heed it.
And now, this day, after that cancelllation, im having to face my misery.
The misery is not the cancelled show, but the greed. It's like, if I wasnt greedy, then a cancellation would not hurt and grind.................. and repeat in my head, time and again that I was wrong !!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
