Manon,do what you have to do for you! Have a blessed and productive day!

one of the members here in our town always shares "I'm not grateful for... I'm just grateful!"

Irala.N (1954) wrote about not giving too much importance to negative feelings.

The Baisc Text NA says that what we want to do most is to feel good about ourselves.
each day I encounter weaker people, who try to pull me down or critisize me in order to make themselves feel good.

I try not to react, cause to do so would be very injurious to them, so I just let them be.
If it affects me enough, then I try and talk to them and clear things.

This evening at a friends 1st anniversary meeting, I shared first.
I shared I was addicted to many different drugs but honestly stated i was a smack addict because that was the last drug I was addicted to.
I usually state than in NA meetings so someone will identify.
I also do it so I do not forget that Im basically a drug addict and not run away for that reality.

I shared some gratitude too.

Then another member shared after me.
He went on and on, as if in a lecture, about how we should not identify as this or that addict.
then he went onto without telling us what he was addicted to or what his drug of choice had been.
I got restless an in order to preserve myself esteem, I just walked out of that meeting and came back after sometime.

The point I was thinking about was how I was never shown up for identifying as a smack addict by another NA member in all my recovery.
This was the first time I got that sort of cross-sharing and felt a bit hurt.
then I saw through the giuy and realized he was acting that way because that is the way he acts in his primary Fellowship; cutting down people, lecturing and moralizing.

I felt very sad for the guy,,, for pretending to be an addict like me......