been over doing it a little lately picking up things i should leave alone my pain levels are on the roof and the things i use are not working it is days like this i come the closest to going to the doc and getting something else as a chronic pain sufferer i have to deal with this all the time i was finally able to get a little break and got the pain to back off a little so my suboxone and my tems unit finally started working but it is a reminder that i have this active addiction even in recovery and the damaged part of my brain is always working on my addiction my pain management doc still doesn't know what to make of me at times he says i shouldn't function at all i just am very glad i did not use and stayed with my thoughts of recovery
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Great show Bret. As I grow older, In getting creaks and groans all over my body too.
I suspect I may be slightly arthritic (runs in the family), especially when the heels and the soles begin to pain. Ive tried a bit of self- reflexology and seems to work well till now. I hope I wont need medicating in the future.
Then theres the stomach thats always been a spurce of attention for me. 4 years ago they took out my gall bladder saying the stones had made it dys-functional. I had a lot of pain in the stomach, they said it'd go away with the gall-bladder removal.
It didnt.
Then there was the hep. c treatment for 6 months last year that kept my stomach in a troubled state. They said the turbulance would go away when the treatment stopped but hasnt,, even six months after.
Sometimes, when looking at themirror, I have a tendency to scold myslef for not winning the battle of the bulge ( paunch), in fact not even trying hard enough. Those xxtra inches at the waistline hav been a constant source of embarassment for me but the weird thing is I havent really done anything to flatten out my tummy. Few exrecises, watching ones diet for fatty and sugar foods, not eating to a full stomach and things like that could probably have eased the condition. Sad fact is I havent really bothered, I was either too busy, or too lazy or too apathetic to that aspect of my recovery.
I have been walking over the years; that seems to have arrested the putting on of weight and has ben a great excercise routine. Walking away the weight, walking away the anger, walking away the blues have all become part of my daily routine. That and yoga keep me feeling good about my physical self, inspite of the poncho..
So there it some work to do on my stomach and see if the irritations in the stomach do go away with a flattening of the waistline.
Hmmmmmm,,, more recovery to do,,,
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Hang in there Rocky.Im on the way out to church I'll make a special altar call for you.keep focused and stay in prayer.I also have lived thru some pain where I thought that if this is how I had to live life I m not sure I would want it.Pain and disease talking.God is in charge of all this....peace my friend...some days I get up and everthing but my eyelashes hurt!!!!but bottom line and only thru God's grace I do get up.....many in my crew aren't getting up anymore
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I threw out my back last week and it's just now getting anywhere close to normal. Overdoing it easy to do. We guys like to think we're invincible, that age and infirmity don't apply to us. The only way I was able to recuperate at all was to to under-do everything. It wasn't too hard because it hurt to take so much as a deep breath, but I'm still under doing and it is getting better.
I too hurt everyday and the only thing I can do for sure that does work, is not pick up and use. I know if I do then the pain I'm going through now is nothing compared to what me AND my family will go through if I decide to pick up. I pray, take my suboxone as prescribed and use my Tens unit, and that's about all I can do. I will Pray for you and you do the same for me and I believe we will be alright.
Hi Rocky. Hope your feeling better by now. Do hang in there. Most of the people on this site help out lots as most have been through some serious pain. Stay strong, I am praying that you do.
I have managed to stay clean for almost 2 years with the help of the people on this site and other NA groups.
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Hey Buddy, hope your doin good today. I know my pain level is up there so dont feel lonely, I'm right there with you. I had gotten away from this site for a long time, then I seen your post and what do ya know, somebody I can relate too. Anyway hang in there man we will make it.
one of the people I knew used to say "the good thing about bad things is that they do come to an end"...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
