I'm trying to stay clean.I'm trying to learn a new way. I belived my life was getting better and now I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel any more. I pray to my HP for strength to get me to the point where I can see the light. My old man just started working and the guy he has been working for helped us get a truck when ours died. I just got a call that our new truck just blew a rod, and we haven't even made a payment on it. We already lost our gas(it was shut off last week), know I dont know how we are going to pay for anything(llegally that is). I feel so helpless right now,but I do know turing back to my old ways would only cause more things to go wrong. Still I'm have a hard time dealing with this in the right way or even knowing what the right way is. So PLEASE pray for me to find my way(the right way). PLEASE also share with me if you have been throught anything like this.
The only "right way " for an addict is first "don't use!!Give yourself a break and remain lucid so you have a shot at working things out,You know you can't when your in the grips,.It is important to find a Higher Power " in your life to turn things over to but for now just show up.,that is a process and you don't have to get caught up in that now,,,,....By making a meeting you will feel the power of the group,you will be able to see ,based on evidence ,how people just like you are working their recovery,one day at a time.Get some numbers,share whats going on and I AM SURE YOU WILL FIND SUPPORT.We are always going to have trying situations going on, life on lifes terms..We learn to handle these situations with support from others,our trust in a HP and learning about our disease"addiction', and our solution the 12 steps....Stick around okay,we can do this together......
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Times are hard, no doubt about it. There are people in my area with good clean time who are losing homes. It's a trend of the times. The only thing that is guaranteed is that going back to drugs will make things worse. It always does. If we could use successfully we wouldn't be here. I'm so sorry for your difficulty and yes I will pray for you. All I can suggest is go to a meeting and share your pain. Let the power of the group be your higher power. You never know.
