So here Iam..stumbled across this and decided to join. I have been battling addiction since 12 years of age and I'm 35 now. I'm a mother of 3 and have been sober for 2 weeks now. I'm a cocaine addict...ahhh I hate the sound of that.....it's like finger nails on a chalk board. Wanting and needing balance and a LONG period of sobriety in my life! The thing is, my husband and I use together which is even worse....So I NEEEEEED to keep it together for myself and my beautiful babes...So I'm hoping this will be a positive tool for me. My relationship w/ Jesus is the only thing that keeps me going some days. Thanks! Happy Mother's Day to all the mum's out there;)
Hello Jennifer Welcome,,,Congratulations on 2 weeks,its a miracle any day clean for an addict.I also started using around 12 years old and continued on the"downbound train" for 25 years until I surrendered in '84.I also am a father of 4.,2 in their mid 40's 2 in their mid 20's.2 kids that use socially and 1(24 year old) recovering IV heroin abuser. The reason I tell you this is because you also are an addict and a most likely a co-dependent of your husband,a difficult trial.I would suggest you find an NA meeting for yourself and show up,share whats going on and begin to enhance your life in recovery. First you put down the drug(which you have)but recovery is different than just not using.Our goal is not just abstinence but recovery based on the 12 spiritual principles of step work.You don't have to understand at first,,just keep showing up.Coming to believe is the process that takes you out of the void of surrender and unmanageability of your life.,you already have a base there I can see from your post.Put your trust in your Higher Power,follow suggestions of the program.You'll have to put your recovery first.I would build your base in Narcotics Anonymous but there are other programs for co-dependency of loved ones that down the road you may want to investigate(for example Naranon,no impled endorsement here)I attend that fellowship for my addict,but had over 20 years clean before I attempted another fellowshio to ensure my recovery remained stabile. See if your husband will also NA attend with you.He may follow your lead....Learn to Identify with the disease of addiction and try not to compare,Believe me,the fellowship will show you a new way of lifeFeel the love.One day at a time can bring you that balance that you are talking about!!.keep coming back let us know how its going...
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Welcome. this is very supportive little group here. I hope you can draw and lend support. NA is the only program that works for me. Like they say, it's simple though not easy. Go to meetings, get a sponsor, speak with other recovering addicts, read NA literature and work the steps. Those are the suggestions that work for me. You have the support and love of a higher power and that is a huge step. God bless you. Keep coming back.
NA Welcomes you - If at all possible I suggest that you also go to meetings in your area, get a sponsor, read the literature and don't pick up - That seems to work for us - and we all have to wake up on a daily basis and do this thing - so you are not alone - Again Welcome
