I am tired all the time because rapid cycling (switching) is tiresome in itself I can't sleep for more than 3 hours in a 24 hour period I don't remeber shit even when someone is talking directly to whatever alter is out Iswitch so fast they have to repeat it cause Igot "lost" in self so Avid you say quit trying to figure things out I can't those are pieces thatI have missed somehow and I have to finish the puzzle ppl have been know to call me enigmatic I like that word seems to fit... these time lapses are driving me crazy I don't know up from down I am always tired but can never sleep even under heavy sedation 2 hours tops then it seems as if Ifight the sleep that I want and need so badly I am not getting any answers so I am gonna demand that I know whatr is going on with me when the doc calls to deal with my meds I can and will handle the truth but I even find my self missing what started my down fall in the process WHY why would I want him back after all that it has cause LEE I hope you are reading you seem to make things make since I need that. this madness can only go on for so long I am also calling sex crimes to see where the oincedent between me and my father cause there has been no contact so I am not sure where that stands or anything else in my life I am gonna stop there cause man I could write a book right now I am just so unsure of everyone and everything but the doctors and after the doctor that found me here and demanded my atttention has finally subsided I feel a bit better but I also find myself missing him wtf is wrong with me will it ever stop I am on the edge and it would not take too much to push me over it
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Thanks Manon! I can only pray that there comes peace in your life or that there is something that can help you "live as normal" as possible.I really appreciate you sharing whats going on as when I pray I like to pray directly for the person and the issues they are going thru..Sleep deprivation on top of everything else is mind boggling.Without rest we lose our ability to fight back.I will defintely pray that they can get that worked out first so you have a chance of helping yourself by being rested,not doped into a stupor....This also makes it a little easier to try and offer suggestions knowing whats going on with you...Suggestions that I could make before now have more light shed on them.I will always suggest getting with your HP when ever you are able.Miracles are real,they do happen and if it is God's will help will be forthcoming...When I would close i WOULD SUGGEST YOU 'stay up!,meaning keep positive,I still mean that but can probably use better terminology :) Remain positive and get some rest!!!peace for real..................
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
For me, meds management is not sufficient...I also need a therapist that I trust, in addition to my 12 step programs and the god of my understanding. I need it all.
Addiction is bad enough by itself, but compounded with mental obsession and other complex crap, life can get real intolerable. Sleep deprivation is very dangerous for me, so if I need inpatient in order to finally get some rest, and get stable, and be re-assessed, then so be it.
I pray for god to remove the clutter from my mind, and meditate away the useless, self-defeating urges. I ask god to place me where I can do some good for someone else. Yeah, it's really tacky to leverage someone else's misfortune to make myself feel better, but hey, it works. Well, it works as long as I really am giving something of myself...and I have found that I cannot go into other people's space without giving something, thanks to the program.
Not to give advice, just a thought...have you considered getting some audio tapes of folks like Mandingo, or Louise Hey, or other self-affirming types? I have also found that the relaxation tapes of Don Gibson, with the rainwater and frogs-on-the-lake, actually help me sleep when I use them consistently.
-- Edited by LeeU on Wednesday 21st of April 2010 07:05:01 PM
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
I am tired all the time because rapid cycling (switching) is tiresome in itself I can't sleep for more than 3 hours in a 24 hour period I don't remeber shit even when someone is talking directly to whatever alter is out Iswitch so fast they have to repeat it cause Igot "lost" in self so Avid you say quit trying to figure things out
