Ok - so a while there I have been living and feeling pretty free and spiritual - Then I run into an "ugh"!! - right away I want to shut down; build cases in my head; character assasination; and this has been going on since 8 am this morning - co-worker - so somehow I need to get into acceptance -that is just the way they are and its not my job to try to change them - as badly they need changing (lol) - It is causing me to move away from my spiritual self - and I love me when I am in acceptance - Guess I needed to put it to paper - feeling better already - going to my regular meeting in a few minutes - Just dawned on me - my HP always gives me a way out - and always a healthier way out - I love this site
Yeah doesnt take much we aren't saints LOL . I have to be reminded like this mornings reading that when trouble comes to leave myself out of it, think of the other peoples troubles .
I had a guy tell me to stick to the format after I chaired a meeting last night then he walks away, just before that i had asked how he was feeling after he had a bicycle wreck last week then he turns on me. This guy is extremely mentally ill BUT it still bothered me one other member told me to ignore it and I chose not to so I approached him asking him what he meant he says " Cant you see i'm having a conversation? " then walks away again LOL strange.! I let it bother me for 10 minutes on the way home then decided the guy had something bothering him probably the fact I didnt call on him to share who knows I certainly don't and yeah i hate people who say something condescending then walk the hell away LOL i see them as a coward, hit then run but i need to keep all that crap out of it because i get angry then i'm no good to anyone and miserable.
Selfishness, we have to keep ourselves from being so damn important
I'm not the sharpest knife in the drawer, and I know only myself. I have found that the things that bother me the most in people, are my defects in character. I seem to spot them and annoyed by them right off the bat. So you can imagine I am annoyed a lot, the process allows me to work on step 10. I try to not to allow people to own my feelings and never give anyone free rent.
