Well, I have finally come to the place where I, myself, want to quit using pills and reclaim my life. I have always been a high-functioning professional while using, but no more. I am finally bottoming out physically, psychologically, emotionally and spiritually.
I really need a ton of encouragement on day one and will welcome all.
Welcome to the family! You have taken a necessary 1st step admission and professing your unmanageability.Are you planning on attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings? You definitely welcome here but it is important your learn about your disease,get around people in recovery and hopefully find a sponsor to help you thru .Do you need Detox?Do not get frightened away or discouraged and IDENTIFY WITH THE DISEASE AND NOT COMPARE.You see whats bringing you here its just as valid as any war story you hear...Keep coming back ,let us know how its going.We are a rough mixture of people at all levels of addiction and recovery,here trying to help each other ,one day at a time.You never have to use again....
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Thanks MikeF. I have done recovery once before and detox once, too. Then relapsed about 2 yrs ago and haven't stopped till now. I will find a meeting but will have to travel b/c I have too many clients in this area and a job with little forgiveness for people who use. I am a difficult person to help and finding a sponsor could prove be hard but I will try to humble myself and receive help.
Glad your at the jumping off place, work a rigorous program, meetings, step work, sponsor, service, prayer stay willing, honest and open get support out there daily, lots of meetings helps and sharing.
Thanks, V. I will do as you advise. Right now though, I am going through detox at home - yes on my own today, so I am feeling too weak and sickly to find a meeting. Also had just began a cold/flu prior to detoxing, so the good news is I'm not up to going out for pills either. I've always managed detox; it's the recovery piece that is challenging without a support community, so that is my immediate goal. Have to say: This is the first time that I have genuinely wanted to be free of this and am amazed that I ever went down this path. It has seemed so alien to me during this past month of building up to stopping.
Hey Greylady, welcome. Glad you made this choice. I understand about the nervousness of being "outed" as an addict. but this is a reservation that can bring you down. I speak from personal experience about this. As the only one responsible for your recovery you have to decide how to proceed. This is a great site. You will find a core group of people here who are sincere about helping each other stay clean and find a new way of life. Please keep coming back.
Thanks, avid. I struggle constantly with the tension between common sense and commitment to getting all the support I can. All of my straight friends do know as does my sister. I have the type of job that I would lose if they knew, as I work with vulnerable people.
It's okay though, I can work a good program if I just drive one or two towns over.
Welcome ! glad you made it - My suggestion is to get ot a meeting - feeling good or feeling bad - It is today that is going to determine your thought process - not to sound hard but when we are tackling disease of addiction we must combat it with force and the only force I know is a group, a HP espcially the first few days - that doesn't mean sitting home trying to get well won't help -But the part of "We" is what is going to help in the first few days - see from my experience my mind will tell me ok I kicked the first few days - I am ok - then we get convinced we can do it again - Suggestion start now as you are doing and follow thru with a meeting - getting phone numbers and walking this thing out.. May HP keep you safe - Enjoy the journey
