Hey Family ,just back from court with Eric.Finally pleaded to 3 years probation for last of 6 misdemeanors.Been going on since October 2009.Public defender did a good job cause they really wanted at least 6 months back inside or county year(8 months here.He has been clean for last 3 months and deep in system for public assistance,housing,food stamps an intensive care 5 day a week program and meetings he makes(not enough for me,but his recovery)He was deemed not applicable for work while he is doing this 2 year intensive care dual diagnose process. Hopefully housing will be forthcoming but until then Social Services may send a check to us for us letting him stay with us till he can move out.(like$350.00 per month)I personally struggle with him being a ward of the system but however he gets his life together is better than it was 5 years ago,shooting dope,od's and robbery.This is his absolute last chance with the system cause he been to so many rehab's,TC'S ,jails,institutions and basically death(anaphalatic shock from allergies to the cut,think thats how ya spell it..We have stayed as strong as possible during these last actually 12 years(epic centers,OCD,MANIC DEPRESSION,ANGER,anti social tendancies(dont we all)and chronic theft issues...topped off by Heroin abuse at 17/18.)through the Power of God,the rooms of Narcotic Anonymous,Naranon and of course my faith beliefs when all looked dim.The support here and in the rooms always kept me grounded and I never picked up even when at times I thought I was right back at the beginning and wasn't sure in my later years I could do this again after being in recovery for so long(WOULD IT BE DIFFERENT NOW!!!WRONG).My HP has guided me and my family thru many storms and the more we trusted and stepped back the more we were able to accept whatever came.Just for Today I am truly grateful for my total surrender and I know ,based on the evidence,and staying as close as humanely possible with God, His will be done.Could it all change tomorrow?absolutely,but thats a day Im not promised and I'll take that journey when it gets here.Thanks for listening to that diatribe..I can sure ramble>>>>:)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Three years probation. Wow....that's a long time to walk the straight and narrow. Prayers for his safety and success. Your faith is an inspiration Mike, thanks for being here.
Consequences are what drive me to stay clean plane and simple oi'm sick and tired of going through all that crap all that insanity and hell i'm still insane but not as much and i dont have all those stinkin consequences in my life today so i hope this has all been enough for him. And its sure tried your program mike , powerlessness GOD i hate that feeling ! !@ ! !#@!# $#^T@#Q$
