Manon,That quote has a lot of meaning.Glad you are doing better.    

-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Wednesday 24th of March 2010 07:13:30 AM

Hey Manon! it is good you are talking things over (with yourself) I do that all the time.You are expounding how you really feel and only you can  take it all into consideration.Stay in prayer and continue communicating.You may want to tell your significant other what you are telling us and both of you can continue to look at all avenues.(that may not be easy)It does not  need to mean you will be alone its just that some things are not just right for you at this time.Kind of like we say in the process"we didnt get here overnite,so 'EASY DOES IT! wHATEVER i WISH YOU PEACE ,JOY AND HAPPINESS in your life....

Amen!!! Also readings tell us that our situation is not hopeless!Far from it,but that hope lies outside ourselves.in our HP..A big part of turning our will and lives over comes from the committment we make to continue even when things don't seem to be changing by continuing action for e.g. working steps,getting out of the way.helping someone else.This is culmination of the work we do and definitely somewhere along the line 'more will be revealed"it is not in our time but in our HP'S AND THATS WHERE WE KEEP TAKING OUR WILL BACK..Stay up and stay in peace....Patience very difficult for our family members,I definitely know for me!!! see ya!

Manon I hope you truly know in your heart that we are here for you no matter what. I feel comfortable enough to speak not only for me but for all of the wonderful amazing incredibly supportive people on this board that I am blessed to be a part of. That includes you too. I understand completely about getting married for the wrong reasons. After I divorced my 1st husband I swore I would never re-marry. I had 2 beautiful & healthy daughter's and a very promising career and i was truly happy. I was in a very healthy relationship or so i thought. He traveled 5 days a week, my girls loved him & he adored them. Actually he couldn't have loved them more if they had been his biological kids. Their dad even liked him or pretended to anyway. (that's another story for a different post) lol Jon & I were together on & off for 4-5 yrs, maybe a little longer until i finally gave in and married him. I loved him but i wasn't in-love w/ him. He worshiped my kids, loved me, made a a ton of money, for the 1st time in my life I was able to be a stay at home mom and he had always had an unlimited supply of every single drug of my choice. On the outside we looked & played the part of the happy little upper middle class family. I am sure you get the picture by now. We both knew I didn't want to get married again but I gave in FOR ALL OF THE WRONG REASONS! We were married for about 3 yrs. We stopped doing drugs or the hard ones anyway and I am sure you can figure out what happened after that. Sorry for life story but for some reason once i started writing it just kind of spilled out on it's own. What I am saying is getting married isn't the answer to your problems especially if you don't love the guy. I've finally come to realize until I am happy w/ me I will never be able to be happy w/ anyone else. Period. and believe me I still have a hell of a long way too go. Please know things can & will get better if we work the program. I don't know about anyone else but I have to believe that or I'll go crazy. I refuse to believe this is all there is for people like us. There just has to be a better life after addiction. Please hang in there w/ the rest of us and fight like hell to achieve this thing called "LIFE" and all of the wonderful things our HP has planned for us. God Bless You Manon and please know you are in my prayers.

Your friend,
Stacey