Haven't been around forum for a few days,life has been running rapidly.I absolutely feel blessed to be part of this forum ,the caring fellowship here and in the rooms.Welcome back Manon,I prayed diligently for your safe return if that was to be  God's will.Congrats on your engagement that is exciting!!!I had a friend go back out last week,he called and I picked him up from New York city he came ,used ,got put in a psyche center and then thrown out.We went to his room ,got his clothes ,got him straightened out on his psych meds(Seraquil,Trazadone)emergency room set up etc,his girlfriend called(also an addict in recovery)and he was back with her.Two days later he went out again<just not ready!!!Last night his girlfriend called and we got him back to emergency Rehab  or detox,and now its his work to do..This last month we have seen a few more fall down and we are also praying that they will make it back.This disease is powerful!!!Blessings also in my life,I was asked to lead a celebration ,at other fellowship earlier in week for a friend with 9 years,always an honor and a privilege,I celebrate 62 years of life next thursday the 25th,a real miracle and my 23 yr old son remains clean and doing some work,looks as if he is going to get public assistance for awhile,monthly housing around($350.00) food stamps($200)and check mailed directly to us.He is in process of looking for shelter right now.He has been deemed not able to work for time being from his intensive care program and finally gets to plead to his last (out of 6) misdemeanor charges in a couple weeks.God is good!!!His girlfriend is also going to receive emergency housing,food stamps and a new program,Livingston Center,time will tell there.Only By the grace of God do we all remain just "one bad decision away from where we came from.I am so grateful to be in total surrender to my HP,to each day as my eyes open,give praise,ask for forgiveness for my shortcomings,ask to be able to forgive myself and others,instill our 3rd/11th step in my life before I even get out of bed.It is awesome,I have a HP,whom I choose to call God and He only asks a couple things of me.He gives me exactly what I need(definitely not what I may want)and wants me to love Him with all my heart and pray for knowledge of His will and to love you as He loves me,accompanied by the spiritual principles of NA AND TO DO THE WORK NOT JUST TALK ABOUT IT.By doing this,even though life blasts away,I can remain in peace,thru death,disaster,heartache,financial trials(big struggles here now) etc.Thanks for letting me take part in my own recovery here this morning,we can move forward together as it states in our process,We is stated in 11 of our 12 steps and God is mentioned 4 times.With each other ,God in our lives(our own concept)lets go out today,carry the NA message of recovery,help somebody and 'JUST FOR TODAY"be grateful of being alive..See what happens when Im not on forum for few days...blab,blab,blab,,,,,:)    peace my friends