"There will be times, however, when we really feel like using. We want to run, and we feel lousy We need to be reminded of where we came from and that it will be worse this time. This is when we need the program the most."
Basic Text, p. 81
If we're contemplating a relapse, we should think our using through to the bitter ends. For many of us, those ends would include severe medical problems, imprisonment, or even death. How many of us have known people who relapsed after many years clean, only to die from their disease?
But there is a death that accompanies a return to active addiction that may be worse than physical death. That is the spiritual death we experience when we are separated from our Higher Power. If we use, the spiritual relationship we have nurtured over the years will weaken and perhaps disappear We will feel truly alone.
There is no doubt that we have periods of darkness in our recovery. There is only one way we can make it through those troubling times: with faith. If we believe that our Higher Power is with us, then we know that all will be well.
No matter how badly we may feel in our recovery, a relapse is never the answer. Together, we find recovery. If we stay clean, the darkness will lift and we will find a deeper connection to our Higher Power.
Just for Today: I thank my Higher Power for the gift of NA. I know that relapse is not the way out. Whatever challenges I face, I will face them with the God of my understanding.
Great reading today. As my faith grows, I find that my fear lessens and I am never alone. Narcotics Anonymous has given me countless gifts, but the greatest has been the freedom and encouragement to find a God of my understanding to love, protect, and guide me through life.
Thank you such a powerful post Avid. There are still so many of us that our biggest fear in life almost on a daily basis is relasping. I've probably relasped mentally & emotionally in these last 7 months more times than I would ever care to admit but NOT PHYSICALLY thank God. I needed to know I am not alone in moments of weakness and you've given me that today. Words can't express my gratitude for your post. Once again this message board has been here for me and never fails to make me feel better. Thanks NA family & I hope you all have a blessed day.
Thanks again, Stacey
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Hello Jennb,welcome to the family.please introduce yourself in a starting (start a new topic) spot.Relapse can be the jarring experience that brings about a more rigorous application of the program!!Glad you found us,lets help each other...keep coming back
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Amen Avid,the 'ULTIMATE SPONSOR!!! Make the most of this day my friend in God's grace and will!!!!
