"It would be tragic to write [out an inventory only to] shove it in a drawer These defects grow in the dark and die in the light of exposure"
Basic Text, p. 32
How many times have we heard it said that we are only as sick as our secrets? While many members choose not to use meetings to share the intimate details of their lives, it is important that we each discover what works best for us. What about those behaviors we have carried into our recovery that, if discovered, would cause us shame? How much are we comfortable disclosing, and to whom? If we are uncomfortable sharing some details of our lives in meetings, to whom do we turn?
We have found the answer to these questions in sponsorship. Although a relationship with a sponsor takes time to build, it is important that we come to trust our sponsor enough to be completely honest. Our defects only have power as long as they stay hidden. If we want to be free of those defects, we must uncover them. Secrets are only secrets until we share them with another human being.
Just for Today: I will uncover my secrets. I will practice being honest with my sponsor
I've heard it said that it is important to have at least one person who you can tell anything and everything to. It went something like this. "You can't consider yourself to be an honest person unless there is at least one person who knows everything about you" I know that anything I try to hide completely, festers inside of me like an infected wound.
Hey Avid,I agree for many years I even tried to deceive God(like he didnt know right!)by not telling"all" my secrets.Until I made my 5th step with a sponsor, I listened very hard for, I was never free..Talked clean but inside my heart and mind,lived dirty!!Although God knows very well, until I "fessed up" I didnt really feel His grace and mercy as I do now..Now I know when I go to Him (all day) that at least I am praying and seeking with as clean a heart and mind that a 'fallible human" can have.I fall short everyday but I remain humble and know that He will take care of that part as long as I do mine!!! God is my ultimate sponsor but He knew I needed a helper(my sponsor) to help me reach Him with a humble and contrite heart...Its amazing how we dont know it all huh!!! :) Spiritual principles of the process are the hit!!!! Have a blessed day!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
