hi...i am an addict in need of info and help

ldb · Newbie

hi...i am an addict in need of info and help

avid · Guru

Hi and welcome.
Don't worry about being embarrassed etc. we've all been there.
You have taken an important first step. Admitting you are powerless over your addiction is essential if you are to recover.
And hear this ....RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE FOR YOU
You never have to feel this way again.
My suggestion would be to call the helpline in your area
Go to this website http://www.na.org/?ID=phoneline
enter in your local area code and the helpline for your area will come up.
If for some reason that doesn't work out then use surrounding area codes.
Tell them your story. These are the people who are most familiar with the resources in your area. Don't let fear paralyze you into staying miserable.
Make the call RIGHT NOW!!
God bless you.

marigoldhead · Veteran Member

Dont ever be embarrassed.... I was also addicted to medications.... If you have the means to go to rehab, great.. I found that outpatient rehab worked for me. Also find your local NA meetings. It is scary at first to go but you will find that everyone is in the same boat. It is suggested to go to 90 meetings in 90 days. It is suggested to get a sponcer. This is a person you can call when you want to use. I was one of the lucky ones. I never killed anyone, got a DUI, or in trouble with the law. I was addicted for 25 years. I now have 2 1/2 years recovering. For me going to the outpatient rehab and going to meetings, is what keeps me clean. For me going to NA functions, also helps. You need to get rid of people, places and things for this to work. If you cant find anything in your area, email me and I will help you. marigoldhead@hotmail.com. You can also email just to talk..... If you truly want to quit, you will make it with NA s help. I will be keeping you in my thoughts.

MIKEF · Guru

Idb, welcome,you took a big first step ,reaching out and 'coming to admit you may have a problem...This is a stage where taking"suggestions " is very beneficial as those suggesting have no judgement in mind only a concern of what do you want to do about your problem and how we can help.My 23 year old son (heroin addict for almost 5 years detoxed on methadone and as you are aware most IV users are deathly afraid of getting sick.The benefits of draw down from methadone far outweigh the "sickness" in the long run. You know they will take you down as little as 5mg per week if you wanted,the last 5 would be your way back in the world.My son also takes paxil,seraquill,albuterol.Has been on all benzo'xs and ssri;s they make.He was sicker coming of atavan then he was off dope.Our bodies do not know the difference between meds prescribed or those taken to get high... THERE IS no comparison "using because it may be cheaper" than it is to be clean..We suffer from a physical,mental and spiritual disease and it takes over your life in all areas...Please keep coming back and let us know how you are making out.You no longer have to live like this you just need some help to get you on track.May the God of your understanding continue to guide you to "your new life" Thank you for sharing because believe it or not the 'pain shared is the pain lessened.Want this man and go for it...Most all here have been right where you are,the decision must come from you but we can suggest what has or has not helped us and you can take what you need and leave the rest.I'll be praying for you!! We ALL hear you!Are you listening,is the question.......peace......

tbfhbook · Member

Hey how are you? I'm in the Atlanta Georgia area and I was in a very similar situation you were in. I was addicted to oxy, coke and clonazepam, am clean now. I did however see a Dr. to get help. It was kind of expensive since I didn't have insurance but it was a lot cheaper than paying several thousand to go to a facility. Feel free to talk to me on AIM ryswd83

ldb · Newbie

hey guys...thanks. you have all been so supportive and kind. from the 1st sentence of the 1st reply, i was in tears and cried throughout reading all of the replies. good tears!!! can't deny that i am terrified...of all aspects of living sober and going through all the steps that will get me sober for good. no, i don't have the money for rehab, which i really do feel that i need given the amount of meds i take daily, of so many different kinds, and the many years i've taken them. but that simply is not a realistic option for me financially. can't even afford an out patient treatment. honestly feel that if i had the funds, i would go check in to a facility right now, no hesitation. but maybe thats just an excuse to keep using. i don't know. i feel like i would go, but we all know how we and our addiction lies to us...and makes us liars of us. not afraid of how bad the detox will be and i know its gonna be horrible...really not. more afraid of attempting to get clean only to find that the cost of rehab is going to make it impossilbe. then what. i will just continue to use. i can't live this way anymore. so sick of the amount of pills i have in my possession rules me, my life, activities, what i can and can't do...or what i even want to do...which is nothing without the proper amount of pills in my system. it's sad and i find my self pathetic when i think of those things. but honestly, how long can i live this way...esp when it takes more and more pills to get through the day. i've wanted to get married to the love of my life (yes, i lie to him too) and have a family but have chosen drugs over doing those things that i want. knowing that if i get pregnant i will mess a child up...coming in to this world an addict...not to mention the gov't taking my baby upon realizing how many and much drugs are in both of our systems. so, i've chosen pills for so long that it's pretty much too late to fulfill the dreams i once had...before only having dreams of more and more pills and/or gettting higher.
thank you all. i will keep in touch with each of you and hopefully i will find a place or some form of treatment and have some good news for all of you.
you've no idea how great it has been and feels to get all of this out and tell ppl that get it and are supportive. means so very much to me.

tbfhbook · Member

I know how you're feeling, I really do. There is a point I got to when I was using that was my breaking point, flight or fight if you will. When you don't know what treatment options are available it seems easier to just fight it. Especially when everyone else seems to give you a direction but no destination. I don't have a whole lot of experience with barbituates but with opiates I certainly do. Just know that you certainly are not alone, there is a way, treatment can be affordable and that you can still fulfill your dreams. Please feel free to email me at tbfhbook@yahoo.com or IM me on AIM ryswd83. I didn't have a lot of money, yet I still found a way to get better. If you really want to get better then you can. It is kind of expensive but still affordable, I payed for most of my treatment while on unemployment. Since we are from the same area I could definitely point you in the right direction if you'd like. I don't know a lot about NA and 12 step meetings, I'm very new to this site myself. But I do know that you can get better and it's not as scary as one might think. So a couple hundred dollars a month and feeling uncomfortable for a little while is certainly worth a lifetime of fulfilled dreams, imo.

Raman · Guru

Hiya,,
Two addicts I met very very deep into meth and came out clean,,
one had done it for nearly 15 years and the other, a sponsee of mne was few years into it.
No problem cause they clean out from it and now have substantial clean time.

Remember that the cornerstone of the NA Program is that an addict, any addict, can lose the desire to use and find a new way of life within his or her own culture !!

So be it for you too,,,,recovery hugs !!

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