EWE V day I thought someone lov ed me Iwas so wronfgI have been living a dream a promise that will never be true for in reality this is the control that person wants to be able to come and go when convienient for then while yes they are still married and still the feelings are still forbade...the dreamer in me wants to believe it all but in  me there  is also a realist it's been over a year ago when I met my nightmare I used to call him my peace as things unfolded b4 some of your eyes took me awhile to realize that person was opsting here under an alias and still does...the tounge of a serpent and a mind that can't decied what is real and what isn't...
I can only tell you my sidfe of things but he was an artist with his words and I fell so hard to be told it was abusive and I can't see the difference 5 times Itried to off my self because I just don't understand....actions are louder than words right??? If that be the case trhen Ineed to take care of me and move on...So why is it that I still want what I can't have???