I am grateful for all the many blessings I have inb my life...I know ppl love me but when do you start loving yourself? I figured if I loved myself maybe things might be a bit easier...curve balls are killing me I am weary lonely and really tired...not alot of sleep bcause of my DID(multiples) seem to be functioning as /I am supposed to be sleeping so I am so wore out ppl see it in my eyes...and not sure what to do;although I am supposed to startseeing a ptherapist with PHD couldn't spell what she is sorry I too am only human...My vacation was enjoyable my neighbor went with me and shopped a bit there was not alot to do otherwise being the off season but man it was also just what I needed alot of quiet...not as energetic as I used to be with my nerves I don't go places alone so between my neighbor and mt bff i do get out sometimes they have to push meto get out of the house I just don't really wanna be around ppl not sure why but I seem to panic when aroiund a crowd... I used tto be so social and now not only do I hide behind my door I hide by using this laptop as wellwhat can I say I love my puter all my frioends are in here how could I not love this thing...neway there is a shiort post kinda just getting outta my head and share my troubles
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Praying for you Manon! Just for Today!I will reaffirm my Third step decision.I know that with a Higher Power in my life there is hope. Hope shot for today,hope has no colors,creed or boundaries reach for it today and feel the miracles of God!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
hey there...Seems to me that if you did not love yourself you would not even bother reaching out and communicating...so perhaps it is not true and you are actually loving yourself more than you are aware of.
For me, my perception of loving my Self is often relative to how I feel and think about things. I have come to see that my feelings and thoughts about things are not good measures of self-love, because my perceptions are sometimes flawed to the point of not being so good for me. So I make every effort to "turn my life and my will over to the care of..." so I need not burden myself so much with my erroneous thoughts and distorted feelings...especially when my other disorders are flaring up. Lies of the devil, so to speak, and not to be trusted.
Addiction alone, even without other complications, is a disease that promotes self-loathing, which is very hard to overcome and hangs around for a long time. Hope that makes some sense. Patience, grasshopper!
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
hey there...Seems to me that if you did not love yourself you would not even bother reaching out and communicating...so perhaps it is not true and you are actually loving yourself more than you are aware of.
