Depressed don't wanna be here but don't know where Iwanna be who I want to be with I cannot be with and I just feel as if I am just going thru the motions with no emotion mom seemed to be glad she didn't have to worry bout me while I was away part of me just wants to get a Uhaul and just go till I run into something I like and do my best not to look back while there are pieces of me will always be here as well as A part of me but I just can't pretend anymore
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Hey Manon! glad you got back home okay..Sometimes after elation(had some fun) there comes depression(a let down cause its gone)A real good time to 'do something really out of character"I dont know,start a business,become a ballerina, join a marching band!!something to really take you out of any comfort zone . ..Sounds weird,but we at times need a really good shakeup to regain our focus.....Our 12th step talks about "spiritual awakenings are usally at least accompanied by a loss of feeling isolated and a sense of direction..It sounds like old news but the "ultimate Doctor is God ,you should make sure you get all your prescriptions from Him.. I will pray for your serenity and know that when you get your new hairdo,put on a pair of calypso pants (do they still make them??)head out to do something"really out of your realm! you'll renew your spirit!!Peace
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Manon,Try and think about the good positive things that happened or your trip.Try not to think old thoughts that make you depressed,they are not healthy.By you humor you show us,I know there has to be a beautiful person inside.
-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Monday 8th of February 2010 10:42:11 AM
