this has to get better lol I am just too damn young to feel this damn old lol fuckin country songs... I am sick and tired as well those are prolly bothe able to be googled lol my new fav toy well one of them lol going to branson this weekend for a well needed vacation my best friend then an old member that Imet here she was here when Ifirst strarted here but we are going for a girls shopping spree if they can drag me outtat the room hell today was bill day I did what IHAD to do and came home to the simple comforts I am lonely...wishing that could resolve but accept whatr I cannot change I am trying to be o so patient they have me so medicated I can't function 20 pills a day mostly mental meds I have my share of health don't get me wwrong but all combined no wonder Iam so numb I asked my shrink I said when my head calms down and all is "norm" you are going to taper off he agreed this was for a certain period and we will be looking into new treatments so Ihave to trust him even if it scares me to trust someone like that it was hard but that year has came and gone
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Manon , Keep good positive thinking.It sounds like you need to get out and go to dance or go to Branson to a night out on the town.Do it if you can affordit.I also understand you might feel safest at home . I know some country songs all deal with pain ,misery,love,or wanting.Just think in the day,it may be better tommorow.
-- Edited by cdbuckberry on Tuesday 2nd of February 2010 10:00:25 AM
Hey Manon! I know how you feel "pilled out" on psyche meds.My son has been on all of them all from XANAX to Resperdal trying to adjust his OCD,Manic/Depression,Anger Issues/Lack of sleep from Heroin addiction etc....When he gets adjusted he is able to fuction much better so lets hope you get"med" stabilized and then 'GET OUT SOMEWHERE!!!!!"During my first couple of years of recovery I used gambling as a crutch to stay clean and with different people than I used with,(not so good ,but better for me than drugging)next was church group,then martial arts group,then running community then Naranon etc,so I had to continue to "keep myself active " or I would get back into my head and "really weird in there"!!!!!I agree with CD, get a 2 stepping or take a trip ,join a bowling group(I would barf when people would tell me stuff like that ) but it does help....Stay up and stay God powered! peace!
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My daughter went from 18 meds to 3...took literally a few years, much trial and error, multiple hospitalizations, and a hundred pounds gained and lostthe weight was F***king Zyprexa). Today she is well,happy, employed, has a good boyfriend, and is working through the anger & grief at the years "lost". I am so grateful that she is even alive! Hnag tuf...at least you have a program of recovery and a support sysytem/group (my daughter doesn't and I see how much that hinders her.)
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