Been a week of emoti0onal hanging on to sanity !!! Concious efforts.
1. Friends have been troublesome and Im going to have to make some real decisions. I am making notes, Meditating and Praying and then will have to let go with love and understanding after discussions. Ive already shared in NA meetings and was pleasently surprised that others werd going through the same issues. Ive come to believe that some friendships have ended their usefulness to both parties involved and the status quo has to change. Only then will I do justice to our Program of recovery and honour my own self-esteem.
2. The events Im playing in are getting frustrating because they have been un-professionally managed according to my theory, of which Im qualified, both through education and experience. As I grow, mature and experience new things in recover, I realize id rather do my own thing than be a sidey. Hoever , my financial realities requoire me to play my sax for others too, and that generally frustrates me. The Meditaions are really keeping me in Serenity.
3. Sexual problems have been coming up, and after being completely celibate for a year and some days, I dont know what to do ! This issue is really going to stretch me and I know Il have to share a lot with otrher recovering addicts in NA amd also do a lot of reading,writing and taking notes before more is revealed.
4. I was disappointed in another appointment too, when what I wanted was replaced by wjhat a group of people thought I was great at. Therefore now I know I have to do a lot of accepting a searching in order to enjoy that event.
That said, Ive had strong pluses this week, close Fellowship with NA members, my music is sounding better than ever before, my event study schedule is bang on target , my closeness to my family is growing and Im meeting other social responsibilites well.
So, I really want to say, to anyone struggling in any way out there to remember that the STEPS ARE THE SOLUTION !!!!
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Hey Raman good to see you.yes i agree 'steps are the solution.....hang on the pluse,work on the minuses and i know you are grateful to even be in the area of"making choices"..We didnt have that luxury always!!! peace my friend,Manon got some blonde jokes going on and I got to get over there :)
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
YEP im seeing that more and more the steps are the solution a tool we can use in all of our affairs and difficulty's, Amen raman. We need stay humble and greatful we all have a wonderful gift here and we are blessed no matter how bad things get we dont have to use again, A MEN A MEN AMEN lol
thanks for the update, sounds like your head is screwed on pretty straight. Life on life's terms is coming at you but your dealing with it. Good for you. YaY.....The steps are the solution. Thank God we them in our lives today!
Sounds like you're doing the right thing by taking your time and making informed decisions. Friendships may change or come and go due to life changes but it sounds like your handling this well.
Keep working the steps, praying and meditating and you will make the right decisions for you. :)
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"No one is immune from addiction; it afflicts people of all ages, races, classes, and professions". Patrick Kennedy
