DOES ANYONE NOT KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THE GOD DAMN FUCKING PHONE?!?!?! seriously. im so fucking pissed off. i was dropped from 2 of my classes because my dad paid late. well he paid late because we never got the bill in the mail because my stupid fucking sister took it and put it in his drawer of crap even though it had MY FUCKING NAME on it and he didnt find it until the day it was due and now because of my stupid fucking idiotic sister im 2 classes short of being full time and now my insurance is going to be fucking ridiculously high and i cant afford that and now i wont be able to graduate on time and no one at the college is answering the god damn fucking phone and classes technically started today and the office closes in an hour and no one is calling me back and i keep calling and emailing and no one is fucking ANSWERING! im so angry im going to cry and why does all this shit have to happen to me? why do i have a stupid sister that i want to fucking strangle! im about to fucking explode and scream and break things and cry and punch something and fucking destroy everything. WHY ARE PEOPLE SO FUCKING STUPID! god fucking dammit. you know what ill just drop out, move all the way across the country as far away as possible from them and never talk to them again. they are so fucking stupid i cant even handle it. one thing that pisses me off the most is stupid people. i hate people, ive always hated people and i always will so why the fuck am i here. now they finally called me back 3 hours later and the classes i was dropped from are full so now i have to find new classes which 99% of them are full and im going to be taking classes at ridiculous times of the day and its going to screw my whole schedule up and fuck everything up. how fucking awesome! (sarcasm) thank you darling sister for fucking up my life.
ps the concert last night was AMAZING. fucking awesome. i may go to one tonight but i doubt it since my other awesome sister is coming into town.
best song of the night right here.
shitty quality but still fucking awesome.
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD my dad just came in here and said that him paying late was MY fault. thanks alot. god i hate living here.
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
You remind me SO MUCH of me when I was your age...OK, and well into my 40's if the truth be told. I was filled with hate, rage, and intolerance (I once had a neuropsychiatrist interpret one of my brain tests as showing that I did not "suffer fools gladly", and that would cause me problems in life. YA THINK? The quote is from Shakespeare or something...means I have no patience with idiots. Hated people-all of 'em. Except when I didn't...but that was usually sex. Unfortunately, that whole phase of my world view just kept me and eveyone around me stressed, dangerous or in danger, and miserable. Well, at least I had something to work with when I got to my 4th step, and I had no worry about not having any amends to make. Hated the Serentiy Prayer too, but have to admit...it works.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
