I am being told to get out of SELF and get into working with others and the self will sort itself out lOL but theres ACTION that has to be done i guess im freaken lazyass and dont want to do some of it still working on my 4th step added a few things after going over it with my sponsor this week. Been talking A LOT with others sharing our experiences and i have been meeting some really great people who are clean and have good programs who have gotten past where i am so it gives me hope. I AM NOT A SPIRITUAL PERSON I am self will run riot maniac and htis is getting really hard dont know what i ME has to do im just staying clean but i feel that damned monster inside waiting to pounce out of its cage
Hey Vin! keep opening the cage door"(sharing like you do)and that monster may get out and run away!!!!You got the basic premise"just dont use" the other stuff is like the literature tells us," the Progression of recovery is a continuous uphill (thats tiring!!)journey,without effort we start tumblin down again!! I believe you are more spiritual then you may think(stay God centered,take what you need and throw the rest back!! Peace my friend!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Big V...got news 4 u...if u took the 3rd step, u are now a spiritual person!!
Relax, it's a good thing and will manifest to where you can recognize (and accept) it as and when it's supposed to...at least that has been my experience as "not a spiritual person". And there's that 12 step thing too, remember....it's inevitable from taking the other 11 steps.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
I do feel some what spiritual and i know it takes practicing principles in all our affairs but DAMN i resist it and often just dont know what to do.
This is pure training just like when i stopped drinking and using dope i HAD to just STOP or God could not give me any power back into my life this was the ACTION i had to take, SHE is an ADDICTION.
OK so when people say this program is hard this is where the rubber meets the road folks, this is where we admitt defeat and surrender and let GOD take over and give us what we need if i dont need her in my life she wont be back and better things will come to both of us, her and me definetly for me cause i am surrendering to a power that knows better then I, that dont make it easy knowing this though but faith and acceptance work and this is just one circumstance i have to practice many things.
don't use keep working the steps do the next right thing
i'm definitely not a religious person, and my spiritual condition waxes and wanes just like the moon. maybe just do what you do and not compare your insides to other peoples' outsides? i dunno....
i DO know that when i work a thorough 4th step, all sorts of stuff gets stirred up, and it takes a good 5th before it starts to settle down.
