im exhausted. i slept for 16 hours today. yesterday was one of the most scariest days of my life. i didnt want to do it by myself but it was something i needed to do by myself. i cried all day yesterday. at the stupidest things. but i guess thats what happens. i regret it. i really do. im depressed. im in pain. im tired. my heart hurts too but what can i do. nothing. oh well shit happens. im going back to bed.
i changed the song.
-- Edited by LizC on Thursday 17th of December 2009 04:26:16 PM
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
Liz, Take control of yourself. Move forward. Get out of that bed. Go for a walk. Get some air. Find some positivity in your life. You are depress, so to make the choice to stay and live in that is yours. You have to fight for you first. Get, call your friends, family, sponsor, help line. REACH OUT! Help yourself babe... Help yourself. God will only help those who try... PLEASE
" One day at a time - this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone: and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
That was a quote by Ida Scott Taylor (whoever she is)
Liz this was one of the hardest things that you ever had to do. But I believe you would have regretted it either way. You will grieve, thats natural, and you wouldnt have much of a heart if you didnt. Try to forgive yourself and get on with the beautiful life you are going to have being clean and sober.
[Click here to start writing your quick reply.]Sometimes the hardest critic is ourselves. Many of us would not treat our dog, the way we treat ourselves. I think that has to do with self loathing that comes with the shame and guilt of addiction. You will be in my prayers, and remember God always loves you. No matter what. God is good. All the time.
