Fuck Everything And Run Face Everything And Recovery
. I am scared find myself more anxious than b4. all I wanna do sleep just to get past it I wanna get high pills weed something to numb me I am scared and worried and a whole other range of emotion but i tell ppl when they post their probs look at the support you get Never Alone Never Again whether face to face or simply MIP which by the way is great for someone home bound due to my fears and anxiety. I have psyc nurse comin in see a shrink every three weeks just trying to stay in one piece when all I wanna do is scream die something to make it stop. As we come up on the new year I am full of fear from the year to comeknee surgery again and then this legal stuff. I wanna recover but at the same time my tail is prepared to tuck tail and run
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
i understand how paralyzing fear can be. in the past, i would refuse to make any sort of decision, and let my inaction drive eventual outcomes. i did learn over time that it's OK to be afraid - and really a very normal thing. what is not normal (for me) is to allow fear to dominate my actions.
getting high will not solve anything. when i would come down - there i sat.. again, paralyzed and driven by that same fear, but only worse.
being scared has yet to harm me - so long as i continue to just do the next right thing.
don't use no matter what. you can get through this and will have a whole new set of recovery tools in your tool box. :)
