Here I am again. At the same place. Not happy with who I am this morning. Just frustrated, hurt, bothered, and upset. Don't know how to move forward. Reaching out for help but not getting any. I realize I can't to this by myself. I am not strong enough. PLEASE... I just don't know what to do.
Mornin Nelmsey!Iwould suggest you get with the God of your understanding and ask for forgiveness for yourself,ability to forgive others and thank your HP for all the blessings(#1 opening your eyes today)First and always I would also suggest your literature,face to face meetings,call another addict and share from your heart.See if you can make an extra effort to ;help" someone else with a kind word,a helping hand or some kind of support,it may help you get out of your head and start some new thought patterns.Its not easy and takes effort and if you want to say 'shut up mike"thats also cool,but the process of daily recovery takes work.You can be strong enough if you surrender your will to your HP.Bottom line "just don't use"! Share how you are really feeling here if you have to because "the pain shared is really pain lessened..Go with God today and reflect on the peace you can feel if you "make a decision to turn your will and your life over.Post all day if need be .I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers today as I work my process.This can be a weird time of year for all of us so keep things in perspective .Shaking ourselves up and getting out of our own heads is a big part of our recoveries,"it will work but you gotta work it......we are here if you need to talk more
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Hi...what do you mean by " Reaching out for help but not getting any..."? Have you been going to meetings? Mike's comments are totally right on, IMHO. Hope you keep coming back, you really can get help here.
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I went to my first meeting in 15 years yesterday. I had to go because I felt so lost and out of control. I thought I was alone an drowning. But yesterday, I recongized that I am NOT alone. There is more than just me out here and I have a whole family. My sponsor was sick and I had no idea. I feel so bad by thinking she deserted me. She didn't. I deserted me. So, I have this family out there, support system. I am now two days clean. I made a choice not to use. I have a long way to go and I willing to do the work. I will have good and bad days. But today, I am clean and tomarrow I will be too! I forgot that this is something I have to deal with day to day. Day by day. Every day...
ahhh! out of your head and into the mix!!! wonderful,,,yes 'just for today"continue to make the right choices.Stick around people in recovery...Glad you are on the "up"There really are only days with 'good things and maybe bad things occurring"We all have a long way to go 'one day at a time"" peace
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