Hi all. Well after a couple of very very unproductive and miserable weeks,I have called my sponsor and feel like a different person already! Why is it when we know exactly what to do, we get so damned stubborn and would rather wallow in self pity? Im not so sure if you would have asked me a few days ago that I wouldnt have argued that I wasnt CHOOSING to be miserable I just was in my own head. I had to be reminded of where I came from and just who I am.With that came remembering how to fix it! I have always always had a problem with being accused of things I know arent true.Felt the need to prove myself! Now its on a scale of even greater importance. I have decided that I need to make a list for the attorney(when I get one! and if not it will be the list to use when I go to court all by myself) with times, dates and exactly what happened, when I called all month and they wouldnt asnswer , when she "freaked out" and told me she couldnt handle 6 kids anymore (her 3 and my 3) and yes, a list detailing facts about what they are wrong about in their letter to me!! Maybe then I can feel that I have explained myself(why this is important I really dont know!) and then let it go! I am causing myself to feel all tied up in knots every day all day, when there really isnt anything I can do until I can take this to court. The steps I need to take to make that happen, lawyer or no lawyer, cant be taken til Monday morning. I have found information about a number to call for help, and that I need to talk to a constable and not the police to get something done! So, Pray for me and my situation, and know that I am doing all I can to keep myself sane and sober. Thanks for being there!!
Hey Carol!! excellent,you sound much more focused.You know ,#1 on my inventory and character defect list "is that need to be right thing"MAKES ME AND OTHERS CRAZY.I can see it coming but I have to work hard to recognize and surrender it.OHHH SOMETIMES i COULD SCREAM but I pray instead!!Yes SPONSORSHIP IS THE JOINT,even if nothing is really said from them Its good hearing yourself say it!!!I do that with my wife,,i ASK THE QUESTION ,ANSWER IT,and then say "thanks doc I needed that...:) She mostly doesnt say anything just lets me go...anyway,REMEMBER THAT SONG"WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES,24 LITTLE HOURS!!good lyrics ,true statement! Let us know how it goes coming up,glad you "phased down" a little and got some peace going on..Praying for ya
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I have really used my sponsor with personal details of how things effect me and how i have acted back he usually shares right back reminding me of some little thing i might have missed or shares some of his own life experiences , it's pretty kewl and he always ends with him telling me to give him a call any time , he's a good guy they get as much out of the relationship as we do.
I have heard a few storys about child custody stuff most the situations that seem to come out the best are the ones where little effort needed to be made, there higher powers and time made things happen so be patient and dont push to hard but do the foot work necessary at the same time be guided and directed by your higher power and how you think he might have you handle things.
