Yes Stacey,,,
I lost a gall bladder to surgery four years ago. They had to remove it cause of pancretitis, stone formation in the pancreas.
I am an obstinate addict and fought off the apin, thinking it must be indigestion etc.
Then one night the most crippling experience of intense pain and folding up the whole body.
My ma rushed me to emergency and the next 10 days was pure hell.

I was first of all in a state of shock, then I was getting depressed as to why recovery was treating me this way. T^he support of fmily, sponsor, NA fFellowship and few friends from outside saw me through.

Call it prescence of mind of Gods Grace, call it what you will, that morning in the emergency, the young doc was about to shoot me full up with morphine (one of my drugs of choice).
He looks at me, adjusts the syringe and says
"You got here just in time. We will give you this and the pain will be gone"

NA instincts and training took over. Lines form the Baisc Text that say
"Our recovery is our responsibility".
I say to the doc
"Wel doc, thanks but no thanks. I am allergic to morphine and other opiate pain killers".

"Many are that way" he says and givems me a non-opiod, pain killer.

I could not avoid general anesthesia in the operation itself, so I surrounded myself with friend and family.
The pain in the hospital then the three month recuperation at home got me to connect more deeply with a Higher Power.

And now three years later, Im contending with the fluctuations in another treatment of 6 months. Then Il have to get the teeth sorted, few gone and few more. That is a pack-up order for a saxophonist and Im going to do that once Im back home and get my teeth fixed.

Sometimes I wonder why this is going on and when it will end in a relatively long perido of complete freedom from health issues.

That is when I am reminded that the body never grows younger, and what we have is Grace.

Recovery is my responsibility !


All the best with your treatment, even if afraid and anxious, you can do it.