I have been having a lot of misery lately.I don't know if it's complacency or being impatient,it's no fun.I am coming up on five years clean,have a 92 year old Mom that is slowly getting towards death but is holding on.A lot of peas on my plate.
right now? my being awake still at this hour... almost 2 AM here, am tired, exhausted, has been a full day... am waiting for end-time for an eBay bid that ends in another 20 minutes... can't let this item go you know... obsession followed by compulsion I guess...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
EVERY single major deal going on in my life right now!
Im trying so hard to have faith, because I know that God can do what i cannot. But the depressed feeling that usually only lasts a day or so is getting longer.....
I want to moved(only have less than ab 3 weeks no place yet,and no packing done!) I want all the Bs with my little girls STOPPED. ANd I want a JOB....and the courage to get back in society to find one! tee hee
The second time putting my son out on street or seeing him "working ' recovery..The end of this obsessive/compulsive codependence .Its time for action!!!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
I have been having a lot of misery lately.I don't know if it's complacency or being impatient,it's no fun.I am coming up on five years clean,have a 92 year old Mom that is slowly getting towards death but is holding on.A lot of peas on my plate.
