Attended the two day Regional meeting of UK. I do service as the alt- RCM from the NE Are.
A great experience all in all, reminding me that service in NA, that goes towards carrying the message to the addict that still suffers is the best way to lose the disease !
I need to be Higher Powered and I can feel that necessity more than Ive felt the need in sometime. Last week was depressing when someone in the Hep.c group shared reality. The hospitals will lable a body who had HCV as "medical waste" pon dying. The body will have to be cremated and in case of burial will require a lead piped coffin. There is a lifelong ban on donation of organs and blood. There is a lifelong possiblity of the virus reappearing, though it be cleared at present. this makes many things dangerous, including cohabitation as well as unprotected sex. The boundries for intimate sex are drawn in. Blood can hold the virus for quite a time, making it dangerous for others in the home, thereby keeping the patient in fear and some shame. During treatment, vulnerability to infections like colds, swine-flu etc is a reality.
This makes self-acceptance very difficult; without other recovering addicts it would be real mental too. This is where the Higher Power concept becomes more alive in my life, an energizing, serene Force, not just the abstract concept it used to be at one time. I know I will have to work this out ,,,,come rain or shine.
-- Edited by Raman on Monday 16th of November 2009 06:35:01 PM
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Raman! Getting the 'message of hope to other addicts in service is a calling from our HP.It is a blessing that you are able to share that and are so committed to it.It takes willingness and perserverance.Proud of you man!Continue to reach toward your HP and let the work in your life continue.I firmly believe that we have been saved for a purpose and if we continue to "do the work"all will be well!I continue also to keep you in my daily office of prayers and wish you peace and serenity.Give an extra hug to Ang and mom's for me..nothing like a good tight squeeze!!!!!
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Aye what a load of crape!!! pond dying ? medical waste ? hell if your growing older each day yee body's a dying they can go to ell and put my body in a bloody plastic sack and throw me to wovles once i die i could careless whats done wit me carcass LOL
Hlped another addict last night and ended up at the end of the road damn hell hole Hotel, i spent a few days there once during a long run of smokin crak, drinking, the place is even worse then when i was there 10 years ago , wasted human beings dragging there poor children through the swamp , gave up my last $40 for the stinkin ass room and 1.00 for some bus fare for him in the morning to see the probation officer.
Service sometimes takes us back to places we've been but at least when we return our lives are truly in a better place and THATS MAKES ME GRATEFUL TO BE IN SERVICE TODAY hopefully when we helped its tha hand that person needed that day.
BigV tHE THERAPEUTIC VALUE,,,,,,,,,,,,.mY SPIRITUAL READINGS TELL ME 'you never know we could have entertanied angels!!!!!! fEEl the presence of your HP
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There was once this man who was very poor. His family and he lived in a very cold part of the world, tending their small piece of land and barely surviving. The family lived hand to mouth each day. The kids couldnt goto school cause they had to help in the fields. The wife did not have even basic amentities but she was always doing something for the house. The winter was pon them, cold ,cruel and unforgiving and needless to say was the most difficult time of the year. But know what ? This man and family were very deep in faith, they never gave that up even at the most trying of times.
Then one night, God once says in a dream to this Great Believer " Be well prepared tommorow as Im coming to meet you and the family". .
The man was thrilled to bits. He got up, called the wife and kids and said to them "Know what ? God's visiting us tommorow, so lets get this place ship shape and cook some good food". They get cracking and have the place spic and span. Then dawn approaches and they begin to cook a great meal. Being poor, all they could rustle up was gruel and some hard bread.
"Wonder if that will please God", the man says to his wife. At that very moment, there is a knock on the door. "Must be God" says the man and one of the kids go open the door. There in the doorway stands an old man, shivering and tottering and saying "Im very sorry to disturb you,, but Ive not had a meal in three days, can you help me please ?" The wife instinctively invites the old man in , gets the gruel and bread out and feeds him. " Hope that was ok" says the wife and the family looks on. "Thanks and God bless you" says the old man as he goes.
Then they wait for God to appear. Time passes and by now it is afternoon, with a little bit of light in the sky. "Wonder what happened to God ? says the Great Believer and looks askance . At that very moment, theres a knock on the door. "Must be God" shout the kids and open the door. There stands a young woman, with a small child in her arms. "My baby is very hungry and has been crying from the morning . Can you please give me some milk ?" The wife goes into the kitchen and takes out milk they had kept for making coffee for God. She heats it and gives it to the woman. The woman feeds the child and the child stops crying. "I dont know how I can show my gratitude, but God Bless your family" she says as she goes.
Time wears on and by now it is evening. The woman feeds the kids the left over from the gruel and bread and puts them to bed. "Where is God anyway ? It is getting on in the day and no sign yet !" says the Good man and the door knocks. "Must be God" he says and opens the door. A crone, a very old and haggard looking woman stands at the doorway. "I ask not for food , but if you can give me some money, I can buy the medicine i need very badly" she says. The wife gently takes her hand and leads her in. She goes in and gets out the few coins they,d kept to give to God as an offering. She gives it to the old woman. Then she says "Dont go yet, Please stay here till the morning. It is very cold outside and a storm may come up" So she goes and wakes up the kids from the only bed they have. They put the last log on the fire, get the old woman well tucked in and press her legs and talk kindly to her and have her feeling happy.
Then the family decide to sleep too and the man says "Wonder what happened ? Maybe God forgot or got busy with something else." At that very moment, a Great White Light fills the room and a Golden Voice says " I thank you for being great hosts, this is God speaking" "But God, we waited for you all day and you never came, I hope you are not angry with us in some way ?" say the man. And God says "I did visit you today and I did enjopy your hospitality. Three times, thanks. I came first as the old man, and you shared with me,then as the young woman with the child and you cared for me and now Im sleeping there as the old woman who you helped without any thought of rewards. I really love your family !!!"
Then a Great Sense of Goodness overcomes the family !
The Moral is that we Serve God only to the extent that we serve our Fellow humans,,,, Faith without works is dead !
-- Edited by Raman on Tuesday 17th of November 2009 12:31:53 PM
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