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avid


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Fear has been the controlling emotion in my life.  
It usually comes in the form of anxiety, but it's still fear.
I turned to drugs out of fear and I turned to NA out of fear.
I had a brief relapse a few weeks ago, and have returned to active meeting attendance, got a sponser and call him everyday, do a little service work.
I'm not so fearful this time.
Yes, the "antsy" feelings are still there, especially in the morning. (Sooooo grateful for this forum)...but keeping it in the day, and doing the next right thing, is easing my nerves.
I got complacent, and it cost me.....but I'm clean today.
thanks for listening.


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BigV


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I'll go easy on you avid i did the same thing over and over again, fear anger resentments you name it i had an excuse or reason to get high.

Then i realized that theres no good reason theres no good excuses it just wasn't working and it wasn't worth giving up my hard earned efforts and desires.

Don't forget to read the literature especially that chapter on recovery and relapse in the book VERY IMPORTANT ! ! !  here go the link to that chapter ,

http://www.earthgroupna.org/literature/basictext/chapterseven.htm


For some of us who relapse i see it too as learning more about our personal addiction to chalk it up to experience and do not beat yourself up many of us have been there over and over again, just keep coming back till your willing to work it.

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'Relapse can be the jarring experience that brings about a more rigourous application of the program"The shame is not in relapse but in not making it back.Like BigV says we can find reasons for  getting high but when we absolutely know there is no other way for us to either stop using or die and  then surrender completely, we can begin to live again..Keep coming back ,nice getting to know you......our 5th tradition tells us'An addict,any addict ,can stop using drugs,lose the desire to use and find a new way to live.. you are back on track ,thats what really matters peace!

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Tisa2U


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Glad you're here, Avid! Pull up a chair and share your ESH!!!

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