Hi Stacey,,
glad you shared that as i8t reminds me that no matter how much clean time there is, the disease is the same,,, herefore the basics are always important in our recovery.

One that that I try not to do on a daily basis is isolate from NA recovering addicts.
In fact, Im in an advantage now because where I go here is Fellowship.
Then I found out that the wy to stay connected is to look at life from the perspective of 12 Steps.

In fact ight now, Im in a dreadful spot,,, away from home, faraway from my daughter and mom, two people I care for most outside NA,,, and miss them.

These feelings become more real because it is 5 degrees here, no meeting today, too cold t go out and get a burger or buy some cornflakes for the morning.
There was a time whyen Id have agonized on this situation, but dont do so anymore.
Action has been a magic word from the morning.
Breakfast and a call to a sponsee and we shared on the phone for long. Then I set the intenet up and got in tuch with you folks here.

Later in the day, though bein Sunday, decided to get some stuff like air tickets back home and freight sorted out, so was occupied with that.

Id also called my daughter and mom , chatted and discussed things.
Then ,I got some lunch going and later did all the research I could on tickets and freight.
Also been helped by a house mate here.

There was also an hour listening to the radio program on Memorial day, when all the British men and women killed in service of their counrty in the military are honoured by a ceremony at the Cenotaph. The singing of the hymn "OlLord our help in ages past" by the choir and attendees brought up choking feeling of sadness,, and a sense of gratitude for those that lay down their lives so innocents will live !

It is 6.30 now and I will walk a bit,,,,, a burger, then some cornflakes for the morning.

I am reminded that just for today, I will have a Program and follow it to the best of my ability !

Two old proverbs come to mind
One is "an idle mind is a devils workshop" and the other is
"God helps those who help themselves"

All the best to you too,, remember that the NA Program is all about an addict losing the desire to use and then finding a new way to live !

Stacey,Things are not easy after quiting drugs,but don't go visit old friends ,they can prey on our vulnerabilites and try and suggest using.Do not go to the bootleggers house for booze and pills he probably doesn't care either.He wants his customer back.

Hey sStaceye69,.glad your back here,Hang on cherish your 4 months clean time some times it can be our biggest asset.Are there meetings around you can make or "anyone " in recovery you can call?At least you can "see yourself comin and sharing it with us,big step...Stay close here now untill you can get some FTF contact.I know an addict who told themselves that maybe they;ll pick up tomorrow but they just wont use today,18 years later she still tells herself that..whatever it takes..keep comin back...

To stay clean we MUST stay away from all of our old people, places and playthings! Even after more than 2 years, I am fighting and fighting HARD the agonizing and depressing feelings of wanting to isolate. Ive heard way too many stories of an addict in recovery, well into the steps, and just stopped showing their face. Soon enough,if they are one of the lucky ones,they come back. They pick up that white chip and know that we still love them. 
One of my most serene and just plain happy times of the last 2 years for me was when I was just out there into everything! I took my girls to  NA retreats, helping with set up or giving someone a ride... just ANYTHING. I began doing the hobbies I once enjoyed that I was always too messed up to do. I scrapbooked a little, read, went on antique hunts at all the junk shops. If you start doing something you may have even forgotten you loved just a little more each day, soon you will be all up into it and the days will fly by! Getting out of self and thinkingabout what you can do to make another person life a bit brighter helped me alot too!

At 4 months I know you just want to get through another day!! :) One day at a time you can!!Just for today you dont have to use.
We are here for you! Keep Coming Back.
THanks for the very honest share. It helps us all! Reminds us that isolation is oh so very very dangerous to us all.