Hmm and i havent done that in awhile and was just thinking today I should maybe post one HEH HEHEH ok here goes, Just for Today.
November 07, 2009
Feeling God's will
Page 325
"I sincerely believed that a Higher Power could restore my sanity and that I would stop trying to figure out what God's will was, just accept things for what they were, and be grateful."
Basic Text p. 198
The longer we stay clean, the less surely we "know" what our Higher Power's will for us is-and the less it matters. Knowledge of our Higher Power's will becomes less a "knowing" thing and more a "feeling" thing. We still practice the Eleventh Step faithfully. But rather than look for "signs" from our Higher Power, we begin to rely more on our intuition, trusting our feelings about what will make us comfortable.
After staying clean a few years, what we do seem to know is when we are acting against God's will for us. When we are going against God's will, we get that old uncomfortable feeling in our gut. That queasiness is a warning that, if we continue in this direction, ahead lie many sleepless nights. We need to pay attention to such feelings, for they are often signals that we are acting contrary to our Higher Power's will for us.
Our Eleventh Step clearly states the true goal of prayer and meditation: improvement of our conscious contact with the God of our understanding, bringing us clearer knowledge of our Higher Power's will for us and the power to carry it out. We know God's will most clearly by how it feels, not by "signs' or words-and it feels right.
Just for Today: will pray for the knowledge of my Higher Power's will for me and the power to carry it out. I will pay attention to my feelings, and act when they feel right.
THIS IS WHAT MY SPONSOR CALLS BEING STILL ENOUGH TO LISTEN. THAT FEELING WE GET IN OUR GUT, THAT AWESOME FEELING, WHEN WE KNOW WE HAVE FOUND OUR CONSCIOUS CONTACT WITH OUR HP. WE KNOW WE ARE ON THE RIGHT ROAD. WE ARE LIVING THE N/A WAY AND LETTING OUR HP BE THE BOSS!!!! LMAO ONCE WE KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE (VS. THE DESPERATION AND LONELINESS THAT WE ONCE THOUGHT WE WOULD LIVE IN FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.), WE HAVE TO KEEP THAT CONTACT BY WORKING THE STEPS AND BEING IN RECOVERY. IT HAS TO BE A DAILY THING. ONE DAY AT A TIME.
IN MY RECOVERY I HAVE FOUND THAT THE CONSCIOUS CONTACT WAS THE KEY(FOR ME!) I BELIEVE THERE IS AN AHA MOMENT FOR ALL OF US AND IT IS DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE. A MOMENT THAT I KNEW IN MY HEART THAT I NEVER HAD TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN!!! ONCE I HAD THAT, MY LIFE BEGAN TO BECOME MANAGEABLE! IMAGINE THAT. I HAVE BEEN WORKING HARDER HERE LATELY THAN I HAVE BEEN IN THE LAST YEAR BECAUSE IF WE DO NOT WORK IT ,WE WILL LOSE IT. I DID LOSE IT. ONLY OUR DISEASE BEING AS BAFFLING AND CUNNING AS IT IS, IT SNUCK UP ON ME IN DIFFERENT FORMS. IT CAME IN THE BACK DOOR! I NEED NA AND THE PEOPLE IN IT I NEED MY HIGHER POWER TO TAKE MY WILL AND MY LIFE FROM ME I NEED TO SHARE WITH ANOTHER ADDICT BECAUSE I CAN ONLY KEEP IT BY GIVING IT AWAY. IM CAROL, AND IM AN ADDICT. LOVE,AND GOD BLESS!!!!!
tHANKS V!!
