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Manon


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I am coming to realize I can't and we can...

in this realization I know I do not have to be alone thru what ever emotion I may be feeling especially HALT I am lonely I am tired and a bit depressed
A little scared to be feeling at all since my hospitalization I have been so numb today I feel what I am supposed to I guess I am not so numb.....
I know this only works if I work it...but at the same time I wasn't supposed to go thru any of this I am disappointed  in the fact I am having to accept what was not supposed to come... life after my attempt nad all that goes with that...  the emotions that come with all are a little over whelming. Not sure where to go from here I have been posting jokes to try to remain in gratitude I also have been using humor to avoid the real issues at hand. I don't see a doc till the middle of the month..
I see the pain doc on Monday I have a bulging disk that is making me nauseous from the pain it is generating  Not sure how to deal with it.. trigger points will be done on Monday as well... life still throwing curve balls and I swing and duck back at it...
sometimes I wonder if life will ever be good for me I hate being a mental patient, pain patient and so much more that is involved with those...
guess what I am trying to get at is I need more support than online can handle but to anxious to be around ppl so really What  do I do?

willing to take any and all suggestions ty family love and blessings coming your way




-- Edited by Manon on Thursday 5th of November 2009 01:54:03 PM

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MIKEF


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hEY mANON!
The only thing I could suggest would be try and find  just a sponsor(if you can't be around groups of people)that would sit with you often enough to  let you share your pain and let you open up to your feelings,if you can't make regular meetings...my 23 year old son has similar situations where he doesnt trust anyone,taking xanax when he has to be around more than a couple people,and doesnt believe in the NA process.(Seemed like he never had any of these problems trying to cop,but I aint in 'His head..The only person my son could trust to talk with was his 21 year old gilrfriend(now doing 2-6 in Bedford State Prison for 4 counts armed robbery) She has now told him(because he relapsed again)that she can't be around him for obvious reasons.This also makes it difficult for him to share as all his friends still shooting dope,girlfriend gone,doesnt trust anyone,said no such thing as anonimity etc.The only reason I say this is like him,you may have to step out and put your trust in someone to get the help you need.We are here but if you are ready for more put your faith in your HP.Iwill, as always ,keep you in my prayer chain..Keep the JOD coming if you can ,laughter is a very powerful healing thing and it may keep you on the upside..I wish you peace mike

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Tisa2U


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Most of us had a lot of anxiety about being around people at first. My solution was to ask around the local NA group to find the smallest meetings, then just grit my teeth, suit up, and show up! The more I forced myself to be around people, the easier it got. I still occasionally get panic attacks around large groups of people, but it's not nearly as bad as it used to be.

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Saul


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I could relate so much to fear of people. I most certainly have social anxiety disorder along with addiction issues. Not everyone needs a second 12 Step program, but I did. I also go to Social Anxiety Anonymous groups, a really great 12 Step program for overcoming social anxiety disorder.

-- Edited by Saul on Saturday 13th of March 2010 02:53:31 AM

-- Edited by Saul on Saturday 13th of March 2010 02:54:09 AM

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