yes i am. my dog, my best friend for 11 almost 12 years is dying right this moment. she has kidney failure, hasnt eaten for a week and now she cant walk, has tremors, had a seizure which was so scary i had to have my roomie hold her down because i couldn't watch. but of course it doesnt help that i was already balling my eyes out. i called the vet right then and there but he did not answer. so ive come to the conclusion to put her down in the morning. its like losing a child and i hate watching her just lay there crying and shaking and i cant do anything till the morning. she also is getting some neurological problem where she bites the air and twitches realllllllllllly bad. so i will not be getting any sleep tonight and will be sitting by her side all night and say my last goodbyes. i love you my sweet precious girl.
-- Edited by LizC on Saturday 31st of October 2009 01:03:06 AM
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Maybe inappropriate but will say it anyway. First of all, I empathise with you, these pets are Divine. They say these pets are close to God all the time, simply cause they dont tell no lies, are faithful to the core, and dont judge their amsters as good or bad; they just give unconditional love and affection.
As a using addict, I did have a vibe with animals, but that became a real thing in recovery.
Ever since, theres been pets in my house and have been an essential part of my recovery.
Then comes the time to part and that is difficult.
Rosie gave up the ghost in the next room while we were close at hand, then we regretted it. Chinook had a slower death and we were very caring till the last. I still remember the last time I saw him alive; hed got kidney failure and fits and I had to leave my pom in the SPCA. The morning brought the bad news that he was gone in the nite.
Then recently my Lab boy Tiger, he was in fab condition, ll of 10 years. Then that morning, he just crumples up , then gets up, looks at me askingly, goes to my daughters room and takes his last breath with me, ma and Anji holding him.
He,d come to us unexpectedly, and left the same way, leaving us shocked for sometime.
The irony iof it Liz, is that you got time to care and love your girl for some more time, that is a gift indeed, time to make up for any defecits !!!
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well i just got back and shes gone forever. my little girl is not suffering anymore. it was so hard sitting in the waiting room while she was panting so hard and trying to find a way out. she knew it was coming and i miss her sooooooooooooo much. i will be crying the rest of the day. its hard coming home to an empty house. today is halloween my favorite holiday and i had to do the worst possible thing ever. i will be taking a nap though since i only slept for a half an hour last night. im legitly sad. and i have to clean off the dried on salty tear drops off of my laptop.
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Im so sorry for your beautiful poochie. This is when "Life on Lifes terms" really sucks! I know how badly it hurts, and I wish there was something I could say to ease the pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you
Very very sorry Liz i know the feeling all too well, just cry sweety I cried for almost a year every day when I lost my little cat chelsea you may remember i was just heart broken, but that hurt meant love lots and lots of love, as tears well up in my eyes right now remembering and empathizing with you now.....
Oh, sweety! I am so sorry for your loss! The love we recieve from our fur-children is so completely unconditional, it is so hard when they leave us. She was truly a beautiful girl. I will be praying for you. (((((HUGZ)))))
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