I met her in a recovery chat room about this time last year . She lived about 5 miles up the road . I would pick her up , take her to meetings drive her home. Talk about recovery . I convinced her to look for a sponsor and she did it. She was in and out for awhile , then just out. Hope she found the peace she was seeking.
I cannot believe God has let me live long enough to see all that Ive seen in recovery. A bunch of miracles for sure , but so much death ? I dont get it.
Saturday night I will be back at the detox , chairing another H&I meeting . Its getting hard to keep my heart into it .
Hey Anthony! Sorry for your pain man! Hang in there and keep bringing the message ,like we know only about 1 in 10 make this trip,I'LL PRAY YOU KEEP GRABBING THEM 1's.I believe there are many things we will not understand until its time and it doesnt make it any easier.God will bring you a peace that surpasses all understanding,keep reaching out.I also buried my best friend and many others and never really 'GOT OVER IT" I had to move forward in faith..We are here for a fleeting moment and then we are gone..Its okay to be weary,but you'll come back strong...My thoughts and prayers in love for you and your family as we affect all we are around!! mike
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Oh, Anthony! I'm so sorry... this part never gets any easier, does it? You see them come in, you see the sparkle start to come back into their eyes, and then *POOF* they're gone... and this diease takes yet another addict...
(((((Anthony)))))
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My Dads first and only sponsee ended up dead my dad went and identified his body which was carved on with a knife saying he was a child molester his body had been set fire too, it was believed that the mans family members did that to him.
Anthony service may be keeping you clean and above dirt so stick with it and let God heal that heart proud of you man your doing a lot to help others find a way out I need to start back to doing more selfless service myself.
"I cannot believe God has let me live long enough to see all that Ive seen in recovery. A bunch of miracles for sure , but so much death ? I dont get it. "
For so many of us, we often seem to be drowning in sorrow, pain, anger, and confusion. I like what you said about God letting you (us) live long enough to see (and receive) true recovery and all its miracles. We each of us are a living miracle.
For me...and I am NOT being flip or harsh...I HAD TO stop doing the funerals. I used to be program manager of a substance abuse treatment program designed specifically for people with HIV/AIDS. This was way before the more effective drugs of today and most folks were frankly just not able or willing to make the changes needed to get off the crack (the drug of choice in the area). I need say no more.
For my own recovery, I had to focus on MY miracle for a long time...I did service work, but more at the "business" level, because I had to work to avoid the trauma and drama of a lot of "the rooms". If I had not done that for a good wile, I doubt I'd still be clean today. It takes what it takes.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
Death and relapse are always tough for those of us who stay in this program. I am dealing with yet another sponsee who got his life out of the chaos and pain mode then desided N.A was great but he does not need it anymore. I lament for his future pain but can only tell him I love him and wish him well and if he comes back I will be here. Those of us with multiple years see so many come and go and the ones that go quite ofter we hear or read about there deaths and think why did I stay and they did not? I can say that life is sooo much better now than when I was using. I still have the same things happen that other people do with relationship problems and life issues I just deal with it the best I can, go to meetings, write on steps and rewrite on them and try to talk to other recovering addicts daily.
