I have heard that the truth will set you free. I have had a few rum and cokes enjoying every sip I take as I slip further in to comfortably numb the peace is so calming the reality sinks in as the alcohol takes affects my mind starts to drift into a vortex of complete confusion knowing that the insanity has to stop with me I desrve what is made for me I no longer have to settle for what they think is best for me. For now I live in my reality loving and hating at the same time knowing you will never be mine. Maybe that is part of my fantasy the fight to get you near to me. The challenge to makes me dear to you, Makes me yearn to learn why I need you making passionate love to me. What is about you that I desire ? Is the idea of us or the reality of me? What is that makes me lonely with out you? I listen to the music that frees my soul from captivity from the one who "owns" me. Wanting nothing but to be free to be me once again as i learn to love me as me the same way you as when you made love to me. My tears are what blind me as you remind me of what could be.
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Huh??? Girl, what are you celebrating??? Maybe I am misreading, but it sounds like another addiction over which you are powerless and which has made your life unmanagable. I hear there are some Steps, a suggested program of recovery, that if taken earnestly, will bring the light of truth into our spirits sufficiently to awaken us and set us free from the ongoing destruction of our dis-ease. The second step follows the first step, and so on...can't be leap-frogged over or half-baked and still "work". There is no easier, softer way. Rigorous honesty, willing to go to any lengths and so forth. Hang tuff.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
Hi Manon! I hope you are well! I was reading up some on DID today online. I learned some things today.I am praying you are only having a "drink in your mind" or writing poetry!I get confused at times(dont we all!)If you are "knocked down" get back up and move forward again ! We can only make this journey work "in recovery" minus all mind altering,mood changing substances.My daily prayers are for your peace of mind.(FOR ALL OF US!) Good night,see you tomorrow.,another 24 to go "to work"..........mike
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not just writing I was drinking I am, after all living in my nightmare the bad part is I am so in lve at the same time just wanting balance to be restored
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Manon, I will continually pray for your strength to battle your demons.Stay with us and like I said "if you got knocked down,pick yourself up and walk forward in a new day!!Thanks for clearin me up,sometimes IM A STUNAD"(IN ITALIAN that means knucklehead or somethin like that.)My interpretive skills have diminished greatly!!!I wish you peace...
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