im so relieved the judge took it easy on me. i pleaded no contest and i got to explain my situation as how i just got out of treatment, im a full time student and i was just trying to get to school. we talked about my recovery a lot and he gave me a break. i only have to pay a small fine and no jail time! (THANK GOD) so im pretty happy for the moment.
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Man I had a good feeling about that Liz...excellent ,take the blessing and store it.Good luck in school and hang on to "happiness" it can be fleeting peace mikef
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
So all that worrying was good for....? You are sincerely thanking your HP? I remember one day, in early sobriety, when I walked outside on a spring day. I must of had about 9 month because and had had a pretty tough time working all winter in DC outside on high rise building construction, going through a divorce and raising my son as a single Dad. Not to many "good days" in that whole 9 months. But that day I walked outside and the sun was shining, the temperature was perfect, spring was in the air with all the smells of flowers and the birds were chirping. I felt like I was walking about 3 feet off the ground, glad to be alive and full of happiness, being in the moment thinking about playing somewhere like a kid. The contrast was unbelievable as the last 9 months was a horribly long depressing winter. All the sudden this thought came over me. I had never Really thanked my HP for being alive on such a great day. The only time I'd talked to him/her was when I was in trouble, wanted something, or I was cursing my situation. So I did and this incredible feeling of warmth, love, joy, peace and serenity followed around that day. I was my first real experience with gratitude. Oh sure I'd made dozens of gratitude list by 9 months trying to pull myself out of various depressions but I was just going through the motions trying to convince myself that I did have more reasons to live than die. But that day I experienced a feeling that someone cared about me. That someone had been trying to get through to me, but for years I wasn't available because I wasn't living in the moment and even today.
"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
That's wonderful. Jail is the scariest, loneliest place on earth, and I'm happy that you avoided it. It's a new day and a new opportunity, now. Good for you. Sounds like a good day. :)
I put my life in the loving power of God and wonderful things happen and some bad things stopped happening like jails institutions and death so hang in there Liz it does keep getting better theres a reason God works through others and that is to help us along our journey, your doing what needs to be done staying clean going to school working a job just stick with that program for awhile.
