Guess I saw it comin a mile away and just knew I couldnt stop it!My son after almost 2 years resumed shooting dope and is strung out again.I saw his use of prescription meds seem to be excelerarting and addressed the issue, probably not soon enough.We found out he robbed our account again,stopped taking his suboxene so he could shoot dope.I also understand that relapse is apart of some peoples recovery but he will be leaving our home in next couple of days.My wife and I debated and prayed for some hours before we could reach a decision on what course of action we were going to take.The agreement in some areas was contested but we found a ground that we pray is best. We cannot and will not tolerate the attitudes and behaviors that accompany this disease...He has the tools he needs if he wants recovery, medicaid doctors and appointments,suboxene maintenance,knowlege of the program and everything where shelters are and food pantries.He has some friends but dont even know if they want someone strung out and livin dirty with them>Thats not our concern.After much prayer and hot debates on how we would handle the situation(my wife and I) decided it is imperative he leave our house(jail was hot topic for awhile but we chose removal from house instead))jail will follow if he doesnt decide for recovery or possibly the worst case scenario,but that also out of our control I spoke with my sponsor tonight,we were actually going to work 4th and 5th steps today but we decided also to do that after eric is out.We are heartbroken but are putting our faith in the God of our understanding and praying for the strength we will need in next 24/48 hours.Tomorrow I have my Naranon meeting and support group to share with..Man sometimes I get so weary I want to scream!We "will" get thru this.I am blessed to have the tools I need to do what must be done even as its killin me.I love him enough to put him out.I will 'detach with love " and pray he makes it back...God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannont change!!! Thanks for letting me get that out I am digging in once again... As always i wish you peace and ask you to keep our family in your spiritual realm...............thanks,,mike
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I know its tough Mike . Not saying that to be nice , I know exactly how tough it is. Prayers with you and yours along with a moment of silence for the still sick and suffering. God help us.
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Hey anthony! thanks for the original wakeup call when I first shared.At times we get blinded to reality.We will work this out and become stronger.Its a blesssing to have a family here to share.Man like I said sometimes it just keeps comin!! I'll talk with you on rebound mike
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Thanks Manon,I know you have your own 'monsters" you are dealing with and I thought twice about sharing but realize this is what "family" is about. Thanks for your support and please take care of yourself.Let us know how your doing.If God is with us ,who can be against us! I wish you peace mike
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
When I was using, my family was at wits end about what to do for me. Then they said "We love you son, but not your dis-ease". Then they let me go, with love and understanding !
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
My brother and I have lived in different sections of the same house since he was born 46 years ago.
Now its been about 20 years that his abusing has got into a sickness andit's been dangerous, especially for me and my recovery and also for others. We have tried treatment, meetings, kindness and he still is an abusive drug taker !
My family has never known the peace I believe we were entitled to, ever !
Once, I resented God even for that, but now I know it is my own survival at stake, so I choose to accept the reality of that situation !
-- Edited by Raman on Thursday 10th of September 2009 06:38:37 PM
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
It could be a real struggle to have to deal with a loved one's addiction... More than my own addiction that I have to deal with in the first place, my loved one's addiction issues is what can drive me crazy and sick...
Melody Beattie, I remember, wrote in one of her books that after cleaning up, the most dangerous thing that can hit a recovering addict is codependency, so very true for me...
Yes, NarAnon does help, in fact, I still turn to Nar Anon at times when I know that I just can't deal with it without a fellowship...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
hey Mike-I wouldn't wish the pain y'all are going thru right now on my worst enemy. Tough love is the toughest love. You and your family are in my prayers. I hate that we have to still suffer from this disease even when we are doing OK in our own recovery/remission.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
As addict we had no idea the pain our family endured. Just today I was telling someone things that got me closer and closer to getting clean, many of those things were comments my family made to me, things that dug deep into my soul and hurt painfully and I was humiliated inside and out.
Just remain honest with your son those tough words might bring him closer to getting honest with himself .
Hang in there Mike you and youre family are in my prayers
