I just thought I'd share about all the fear and anxiety i've been going through. Well i haven't slept properly in a few weeks because i've been anticipating this day. At some points I really didn't want to go. I actually had some thoughts of using just to throw this all away. (it had been a little while since i had those thoughts). I'm an excellent self sabotager and luckly today I can recognize it. So i'm here and I'm surrounded by people who don't have addiction problems, or do and are at their beginning of their journey.... It's nerve racking to interact with people who are not NA. I've been kinda confortable in my NA bubble and now that bubble had burst and i'm out in the world. All my insecuraties are out. I don't feel at the same level as them i feel way way below.....but this too shall pass and I'm going to push forward through these emotions and succeed at this school buisness.... thanks for letting me share
andrea
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people who mind don't matter, and people who matter don't mind- Dr. Seuss
i know exactly what your going through. i started college a few weeks ago and i felt the same exact way. i was scared, nervous, tired from no sleep, and i felt like i was way below everyone else on the smartness level. but it gets better eventually. have fun!
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"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
First of all congrats on trying to move your life forward.Yes our insecurities are part of our 'SICKNESS"but you should not LET YOURSELF "feel below" anyone.Stay focused and continue with your support groups(keep comin back here)It is not easy but our recovery teaches us to 'forgive ' ourselves and to work on our self esteem issues.Focus on where you were and what you are doing for yourself now! im definitely no doctor of psychology etc, just another addict who is learning to forgive himself and realize that as a "sick ' person I am going to struggle with things.Be proud,let your"freak flag fly" and by all means dont take Biology 101 yuck!!!I was back in college in my 30's and felt like kids parents!!!My insecurities were rampant..anyway I wish you luck let us know how you are doing..I would love to go back also ,but I havent committed yet...'LOST DREAMS AWAKEN AND NEW POSSIBILITIES ARISE!
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Hi Liz! hope things went okay in court for you...I also have a friend being sentenced tomorrow and I am a little anxious.Out of our hands and into our HP'S.....
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Our purpose is to remain clean,just for today,and to carry the message of recovery.
Wow, great that you shared that; renews my decision to address low self esteem and self-destructive issues.
I have been praying for acceptance that I am special, I am an addict and in NA, and in each thing I do on a daily basis, because of the honesty this Program gave me, I hear people say to me "It must be nice to be you """
Grace of God,
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
drugfree wrote:to know i'm not alone makes all the difference.....
It sure does! Thanks for sharing that...
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
