Choosing to be Not-God frees me to take the third step, which provides me with God's care , in all my imperfection, perfect care, as long as I remain Not-God.
Keli...if you are sinking toward getting "all the way there", please reach out and call a hot line, don't mess around. We need you and care about you, in all your perfect imperfection.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
3 Years clean and I wanted to die recently, only because the pain inside felt so bad but I am the one responsible for that pain I created it to be there.
And how do I deal with this ? I have been praying a lot more lately over the htings i am powerless over, I get relief. I turn over the out come to a higher power I turn over other peoples decisions that effect my life and let a higher power guide them.
I wish I was a better man but at least i'm able to care enough to wish for that and to work for that, this aint no sissy's game we're playing here the more we grow spiritually the less pain we'll have to carry so we all have a goal here, RIGHT?
How's that song go ? Pain, without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb You're not the only one I'll take you by the hand And I'll show you a world that you can understand
The moral of the song is if all your used to feeling is pain it's hard to get used to feeling good, that's how I read it . Lifes has some AWESOME things about it it's not all pain and misery thats just a small part of the big piece of pie thats out there, so grab what you can stay clean work the program to the best of your ability and give yourself a BREAK and a chance to enjoy the good in life.
That just came from someone full of pain but I am learning to let it go moments at a time and be hopeful and feel happy still, so can you.
let me tell you that is not a female named kelli it is my damn shrink who has stalked me to find me here now is she so sweet and innocent I think not this is a mn that fucks his patients not only for the sex but don't forget what he did to me in my head trying to deal with all this
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
