things are really confusing in my life right now don't know which end is up. Finding it difficult to make simple decisions wishing someone would just take control of EVERYTHING and make them for me but apparently that is not gonna happen so I am forced to live with the wreckage of my past and struggling to do the next right thing. Just waiting to hear the word from someone in "power" over part of this situation to see where we go from here. really wishing it would all come to an end so my life can be re started. All can do is hold on to gratitude and realize I could always be worse off.
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
If yur laying down might be hard to figur what ends up LOL
today i'm living with wreckage of a few days ago LOL and sometimes the day after and sometimes the very day i'm all about wreckage and wreckin I reckin thats right we're winners long as we're not using we aren't saints
So head up manon knock off the
-- Edited by BigV on Sunday 2nd of August 2009 12:25:13 AM
Wreckage of the past (Runs Away!) Dealing with the past is certainly not something I consider a skill of mine so I always default to my signature, because sometimes I just stare at it and the present turns into the future, and all I'd done in that time is just stare at the past!
I believe that recovery is about not sounding too good or not doing too good that we forget that our first priority is to stay clean.
I believe that the dark parts in my recovery actually are an encouragement to seek the Light. But just as there is day so there must be night; nightimes being for rest and recuperation.
Why, only yesterday, I blew my sax all day long with three different groups in a Sunday festival. I loved every moment, I enjoyed it. And to think that on Saturday nite I was agonizing on how Im going to make it. So I challenged God and said "Look, ive had enough of trying to figure things out. If you want me to go, wake me up in the morning and give me the courage to those 100 miles to tha place, meet people, play my sax and do all the right things that I need to do to enjoy my day".
And know what ? That is exactly what happened !
Seems like behind every defect is an asset, and that asset can only be activated by a Higher Power ! I believe in The Light !
-- Edited by Raman on Monday 3rd of August 2009 06:33:25 AM
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Raman an addict clean and serene just for today in NA Worldwide ; live to love and love to live the NA Way !!!
Well I am new to tall this but you sound like you are talking about me. Its like I've made such a mess and I don't know where to start to clean it up. I haven't lived a "normal" life in like ten years. If anyone has any helpful hints for a newcomer that has been to meetings before bbut never taken this seriously. I am facing some real serious consequences right now and am feeling so darn sorry for myseld I can't even look in the mirror without crying. I really wish I was "dust in the wind"...
Suggestions? Sure! LOTS of meetings... find a Sponsor... pray to the God of your understanding... read literature... get phone numbers & call them... howzabout making a gratitude list when you feel sorry 4 yourself... and DON'T USE NO MATTER WHAT.
If you are clean today, then you are a miracle...
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I may not be 'All That', but I'm always on my mind!
thats right we're winners long as we're not using we aren't saints 
there's a lunar eclipse of the full moon
while it's a satellite of our planet, it does
i'm really sorry that we all don't have the experience of
it's so subtle, and you almost have to look for it,
there's a story i've been reading in the basic text called God Walked In
