WOW it is amazing what you can find out with a little patience and street smarts I want to thank all of you who has faith in me and my recovery as I face some of the toughest days of my life since I quit using drugs. Believe me I am not perfect by any means I am flawed in many ways as are we all. The things I have learned in the past couple of weeks astounds me. I realize I am not so "book smart" but I look at my life in retrospect and realize I am smarter than ppl think I am I have just been in a weird state since the bypass my meds are hard to stabilize, but thru this time in my life I find myself oddly stable. I am taking the hits as they come and doing okay I was always one to overreact and I am just shaking my head as the sh*t piles on. Some days are easier than others I will admit. All in all I am doing quite well knowing that I am doing the next right thing. The things you guys have stated about resentments helps me put the past where it belongs. I wanna ty for that!!! The philosophical things I am learning prove to be just as helpful as I sit by my computer at night waiting to go to sleep. Living life on it's own terms is not that bad. I have to, at times take things a breath at a time. But for the most part I am not doing so bad. I owe thanx to my HP. The test I was worried about I no longer have to worry I will be fine which is a huge weight off my shoulders. Now I just have to deal with the residue left from my actions or lack there of. This too shall pass.........
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Hi...to me, book smarts & street smarts are just tools we learn that help us navigate through the muddle. As a person who is very book smart, I find that to be as much a curse as a blessing--all my life people misread that for being elitist, or condescending, or trying to sound superior, like I should apologise for still having something of a working brain and an education I fought very, very, hard to get. Then, as a person who is also very street smart (very down & dirty life in the slums of NY), even today I am chastized for "tone", "attitude", rude-crude unlady-like presentations of self..because I revert to street when I get stressed and it's almost a Jekyll/Hyde kind of thing. So, either way, I'm not fitting in, which makes other people uncomfortable. Do I care? Not a wit. All I care about is I am alive, clean, sober, semi-functional, do my best, have restored relationships that are important to me, a God of my understanding (which as a dedicated atheist was no small miracle, thanks to these steps) that loves me, and the love and strength of people in these fellowships. Don't know why I got off on a rant, but guess I'll figure it out later LOL!!
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
Hi...to me, book smarts & street smarts are just tools we learn that help us navigate through the muddle. As a person who is very book smart, I find that to be as much a curse as a blessing--all my life people misread that for being elitist, or condescending, or trying to sound superior, like I should apologise for still having something of a working brain and an education I fought very, very, hard to get. Then, as a person who is also very street smart (very down & dirty life in the slums of NY), even today I am chastized for "tone", "attitude", rude-crude unlady-like presentations of self..because I revert to street when I get stressed and it's almost a Jekyll/Hyde kind of thing. So, either way, I'm not fitting in, which makes other people uncomfortable. Do I care? Not a wit. All I care about is I am alive, clean, sober, semi-functional, do my best, have restored relationships that are important to me, a God of my understanding (which as a dedicated atheist was no small miracle, thanks to these steps) that loves me, and the love and strength of people in these fellowships. Don't know why I got off on a rant, but guess I'll figure it out later LOL!!
