I have a tube in my throat because its hard for me to breathe. After all this time I have fought to stay here. now I have to fight hard then I have before. i dont know if i have it in me anymore. will anyway ill be at the meetings because this is the only way i can talk right now. In four days i'll have two years clean. but what do I have to show for it. I know we all have are ups and downs. i just guess this is one of the downs. hope to talk soon love ya all. thanks for all your support.
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one minute at a time it works when you don't give up
As im sitting here crying,, I am very sorry for your pain. I too had pain and suffering for over 15 years till my operation. My addictions had ruined every part of my existance and including some of my organs. My addiction damaged my body so bad that I take 40 pills a day to help my body recover from losing organs. Today I have a new wind on life. On august 8th,, I too will have 2 years clean. For me my higher power has given me a new look on life. He has told me that I am here to help others like they helped me. The tables are very important to me. I do tons of service work, call list, and generally there to talk to people that just need to talk. I have 3 sponces now. I volunteer for the same ambulance service that helped me for 15 years. I got my emt license. I know that my life was saved to help others by conforting, listening and giving them the skills to recover like I have. Always think positive. The road will get better. Someone at a speaker meeting said this....."NO MATTER WHAT.....DONT F++KING USE" NO MATTER WHAT. I will keep you in my prayers..... Use us we are your sounding board! Thank NA for showing me the way to recovery and the better life.
Blessings and big NA hugs to you JCD, you will be in my thoughts and prayers...
And yes CONGRATS ON 2 YEARS CLEAN & SERENE!!! WAY TO GO, WHAT A MIRACLE YOU ARE
(((((love you brother)))))
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"If we do an honest examination of exactly what we are giving, we are better able to evaluate the results we are getting."Chapter 10 - Emotional Pain - NA Way of Life.
So sorry you are hurting. Hope you can get some relief soon. I admire your attitude.
