ok since i got clean over 7 months ago i have lost 2 places i was living do to i only make about 300 month and i use most of it on cigs and gas going to meetings and college and work and i dont know what to do anymore but i do have a place to stay with old friends of mine but i think they are getting tired of me being in the house. i wish i made enough to get my own place or with someone else but i dont i even wish i could find me a 1/4 house to live that way it would be all about my recovery unlike it is now because my friends dont think i need help by going to meetings but its the only thing i know of that helps me to stay clean if anyone have something that worked for them please share it with me
Hey shorty thing about all of this at least for me is to keep clean and have faith that a higher power will make available what you need may not be what you want or expect but your needs will be met. Have you talked with your friends about you staying a bit longer and ask if thats a problem . I think if your up front with them about how your feeling it might help with how you feel.
An the fact that you might be feeling paranoid ? I'm always worried about what people think and i'm usually wrong so check that out .
sometimes things just dont go like we want and things dont come when we want it remember this is a selfish disease and it makes everything personal and that brings discomfort we dont handle discomfort well so I try to find some serenity in discomfort if that makes sense.
This IS all about your recovery, life on it's terms for the moment. All things pass in time, make efforts to better your situation and don't expect change to come over night we are people with great impatience and we want what we want when we want it.
Nothing changes is nothing changes I got told that long ago right now I need to get certified for a special type of work and I need to start planning and setting things in motion, first contacting people who can help me achieve my goal, then saving the money to take class's then taking and finishing the class's and passing there tests, then I will be done there's a process and journey that takes time, sure I wish I could snap my fingers and be done but what would I have learned from that ? not very much.
HAng in there start planning and ask your higher power for his/her/it's will be done in your life.
Hey Shorty, You are doing the right thing. Looking to break your expenses into something more affordable for yourself. I know it gets difficult and frustrating at times when things don't go the way we'd like them to, just remember "no matter what don't use" things have to get better. Even if it is just in the way we veiw our situation it will get better. That's what happens in this process " we get better around here". So hold on come hell or high water and I can almost garuntee your situation will turn out alright. Remember we live life on life's terms so ask you Higher Power to guide you in the right direction and the right choices.
-- Edited by PhilEMack on Saturday 27th of June 2009 10:06:07 PM
If you have a steady job and are doing reasonably well in school, perhaps a church or a community services organization would help you out with your deposit and utilities so you can get in something you can afford. Might be worth asking. Hang tuff---couch surfing is a drag but at least you are indoors.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
What area of the country are you in? Your recovery has to be about you! Are your friends really friends? When I used, my friends were not my friends. Keep a good attitude. Your higher power will carve the way for you> If you need to talk one on one email me at marigoldhead@hotmail.com
