I have come to terms with alot in my life lately and I can accept that I am disabled and I am going to have pain the rest of my life and that certain types of doctors have to be in that life because of the problems I have. The one thing I don't want or have to accept is second best and to finish this life alone! I have a huge heart and lots of love to give, and maybe, I hope someday I to have someone to share that and that alone with me. A man that doesn't care what's wrong with me, just wants to be with me and me alone. I will give him all of me with out the worries of the past. Today starts a brand new chapter of my life. Out with the bad and in with the good. There are rough times ahead. I am ready to deal with what comes at me no matter what they are. I give my life back to God and scream "Jesus take the wheel!!" Life as its been the past year is about to dramatically change. But I know My God will not put on me more than I can handle. People have said they love how strong I am, or how resilient. I refuse to go into the hospital because I cannot handle the real world. I know how to run. Now I want to learn to live. True love is worth fighting for. One day I can start that fight. Maybe not today but I will know how it feels one day. Faith is being restored thru the decisions I am making in my life today. For the next 3 months I will wonder if my life hangs in the balance till I can be re tested. I will wonder what kind of life I will have afterwords. But today I put my faith back in God knowing balance will be restored. Hoping that my peace can be restored not in me but restored to all.
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Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough. Og Mandino
Wow, you are one tough gal. I admire your courage to face whatever is, and whatever lies ahead, with the beautiful attitude that you have expressed. Your words helped that restoration of peace in me thsi evening. just so you know.
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From dying and surviving to living and thriving. LeeU
